for my baby

Tonight I was moving more stuff. Sam came over and helped out. Then I took the children to dinner and it was back to the house for another load..... the last load of the night.

We were not in the door more then five minutes when Rusty walked in.

Rusty was tired, hungry, and just wanted to go to bed. I went out side and sat with him. I was telling Rusty all about the move. That was when I said " Just think you can come tomorrow and everything will be done."

Rusty said that he felt bad because he was not hear to help with all of this. That was when I said "You should be glad that have a wife that can handle this."

While I was picking up a box full of dishes I caught Rusty looking at me.

I called my shrink. He told explained to me that guys want to do it all and they want to be the super hero's.

Rusty you are my super hero. Every day you get up and go to work, while I stay at home.

You cook me chicken because you know I hate beef. You will buy me shrimp just because you know I like it.

You worry about me. Weather it is a flat tire or weather I am sick. You worry if I don't answer my phone right away. You worry when I drive out of our little city.

You worry about our children. Are we raising them right? Do they have everything they need? What more can I do for them?

You did not buy new work boot's because you knew that I needed new shoes. I do not know what you gave up to buy those earring that you gave me last year for my birthday.

You allow me to foster animals even when it would be easier if I did not. You put up with my sewing stuff being all over the table. You put up with my mood swings.

You never complain about days that I do not want to cook dinner. You never complain when I forget to set the coffee pot, or when I wash your coffee cup. You never complain when the kitten help you get dressed in the morning or when when of them wakes you up at 3 a.m.

Rusty you are my hero. You are the one who has seen me through some of the toughest time of my life. You were there when my ex came after me, when my dad died, and when I wanted to give up on life. You have been my rock for so long.

I may be the crazy girl that has nappy black people hair. I know that I am rough around the edge, and not always a nice person. I know that at times I can snap at you and yet you are still here.

Rusty,you and I have always been a team. It is just that I do not pull nearly as much weight as you. I am doing this move because I love you and because I want to take some stress off you.

I love my husband and I am not ashamed to say to the whole world. I am married to the best man ever.

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boys, boys, boys

So yesterday Sam and Amber went to the beach. I do not know why they are still dating because they are always together. They both had a good time cruising the coast on a Harley. They are way to funny.

Nikki's ex boyfriend Chris is now back in the picture. ICK! I do not mind Chris, but his mother is a physco. According to Nikki and Chris the mother wants to make things right between us. What? Are you done lying to me? Now that you have been on your meds for a few weeks are you realizing that you are a bitch? What happens when you for get to take your meds and you wig out again?

I told Nikki that I will speak with physco mom from hell but I will only speak to her in front of pastor Scott. This way if she is going to lie and be a bitch she can do it in front of the pastor.

For the last few days I have been dodging cops. I do not know why every cop in riverside county is in Lake Elsinore but they are. I am still paying off my last major ticket and now I have a blown tail light.

Today I am going to go buy the bulb and put it in. The last thing I need is another ticket.

For the last few days Nikki has had these strange random bumps. I blew it off and just thought it was bug bites. Then this morning Nikki comes in and shows me her leg. Nikki got into some type of poison when she went four wheeling. I am not sure if it is poison Ivy or poison oak. I told Nikki to stay away from Amber and I. If get exposed to that crap it go straight to our blood stream and we will be hurting.

Today, I have to go to the hippy store and get her some voodoo pills to cure this poison. I am not sure what the pills are called but the work, and they get the poison out of her body.

I can add that to my already busy day. Today I need to take a bunch of stuff out to the curb. I need to pack some more stuff, and do little things around here.

I am so hoping that Rusty gets tomorrow off. We have rented a 20 foot u haul, and I have never driven a fully loaded u haul down a very steep hill. I guess if Rusty has to work tomorrow, I will no choice but to learn how to drive that big ass u haul.

Life and time keep marching on for me. I swear the last few months have been a blur. We have had two moves. One daughter is graduating, another daughter is going to go chase her dreams all summer long, Rusty and I have had our ups and downs and we are still here.

Soon my life will settle down and I can get back to some sewing, and spend a lot of time on the lake. I can't wait to bake my body in the sun.

I must say that through all of this I have learned that I am stronger then I ever thought. I have always just done what I had to do, this year everything that is being asked of me is very hard. Yet, I am doing it.

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lions do it

If lions can eat their young then why can't we?

Amber tells me yesterday that she will need dinners for the week because she is working a lot. Oh and that she is almost out of gas.

So I had Amber meet me at the 99 cent only store. I bought her some frozen dinners for the rest of the week. Now this is a big step for Amber because the other time I offered to buy her dinner at the 99cent store she turned her nose up. So I told her to buy her own damn dinner then. Well she found out that fast food gets expensive quick.

Then it is off to the gas station. We get there and I try to use my atm card. The gas stations atm machines are not working, so it was a cash only day. I did not have cash. I told Amber to go to work and that I would give her money for gas later.

Not more then two minutes later Amber calls and says well I made it to work, but the car ran out of gas as soon as I pulled into the parking spot. I told her that I would deal with that later.

I had gotten a test from Nikki earlier in the day saying that her phone had been cut off. O.K. I knew that it was over due and I was going to pay it on Friday but I guess I am paying it now.

So off to the att store to pay Nikkis bill. I almost fell over when I found out that her bill was $380! It seems that this child loves to talk a lot.

\Now I have to run to the other side of town to pick Nikki up and give her an ear full. Then it was back to the other side of town to get a gas can for Amber.

I go to the garage and there are three gas cans there. So I start sniffing them. Is this gas? I could not tell, so I grabbed the empty one.

Back to the gas station we go. I think the gas pumps should at least play porn while we are getting screwed just for buying gas.

Back to Ambers work. Nikki puts the gas in Ambers car while I go in to give Amber $40.

I do more running around and come home and throw burgers and dogs on the grill. Finally I am done and I can sit and watch the deadliest catch.

Then Amber walks in and says that the $40 I gave her did not fill her tank. What?! Amber drives a little 4 banger Chevy cavalier. I told her that it must really suck to be her because she is on her own for buying gas from now on.

Nikki gets in from youth group and says "What you did not cook dinner? I don't want a hotdog."

I said " then you should have been here when dinner came off the grill. Cook something else or go hungry. I don't care."

Oh I so want to eat my children.

There was a very bright spot in my day. Nelishia from
http://journals.aol.com/nelishianatl/Prayingandbelieving/ sent me this really cool tea pot. It has a sewing machine and a cat on it! Thank you so much for my surprise!

I think everything else that is left in the house is going to the good will. I am so sick of this move.

OH! A few other things that I forgot to mention have happened. I am getting cash for key! I asked for $1,850 and the guy said that he could get me $1,500 but that he will try for more! Yes. finally something has gone our way.

As for my blown tire. I did not run anything over. The tire was dry rotted! Rusty is just so happy to know that my tires are rotting instead of wearing them out. I guess that proves that I am a house rat after all.

However the whole tire thing did cause that vein to bulge again.

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what a weekend

This weekend was mostly productive. It was nice and cool here, so I was not working in the heat, which is always a good thing!

We got a lot of stuff moved. So now on Friday we will only have the big stuff left to move! Yes! I am so excited to have almost all of my part of the move done.

Rusty and I had to go to the other side of lake for something, so I asked Rusty to help me load the truck. Now I thought this would be an easy request. All Rusty could find to load were fishing poles!

Fishing poles? Why do we even own fishing poles? I hate to fish and Rusty does not know how to fish. So why do we have fishing poles? Oh the question hurts my brain.

Rusty and I went to the cemetery on Sunday. I am so proud of Rusty for going. The cemetery was very beautiful.

Today I need to go down to the school district and change our addy so Ryan's busing can continue. I thin that is last of the paper work that I have left to do.

Yesterday we were all sitting around watching t.v. and eating dinner when Amber says " Mom can I go to sturgis the first week of August?"

No she may not ride from the so cal to sturgis! I want to do that! I told Amber that if she wants to go she should go for it. So if Amber can get the time of work she will heading out to sturgis!

Next week is the last week of school for the girls. The seniors get out of school about a week before everyone else. Nikki is taking her exams early, because she leaves next Saturday to start her summer adventure.

I am not sure when Ryan gets out of school. I know that Ryan will be going to summer school but that is only two weeks long. I really need to find something for Ryan to do this summer.

Nothing is getting done by me sitting here. I guess I should go get into he shower and get my ass moving. Life and time are marching on.

 

 

 

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last night was awesome

http://videos.nctimes.com/p/video?id=1895232

So, you have to check out the above link! It is so cool.

I grew up in the mid west where rain, wind, hail and tornadoes are part of lives.

So yesterday while I was on my home it started to rain. I was thinking to myself well at least my car is getting washed. My car is suppose to be white but it is actually more like a brown color from all of the dust.

Then I pull into the driveway and I open the car door and I hear this strange sound. Crap! That is my rear tire going flat. I called Rusty and asked him what I was suppose to do.

O.K. I know that sounds like a stupid question, but here is why I asked the question. Our drive way is on a slope. Rusty said that he did not want me to jack the car up because is does not want it to fall on me. So I was told to wait until he got home and that he would take of it for me.

I got into the house and the weather just kept getting worse. So I cooked up some soup and made sandwiches for dinner.

When I was growing up my mom always made soup on cold wet days, so I thought why not?

I ate some dinner, took a shower and made some tea. I settled in and turned on the weather channel. We had flash flooding, tornadoes, hail, high winds, and I was loving it! For once we finally had weather in California!

No one else was happy. I just laughed and said "If you hear a train coming run for the laundry room."

Today I am stuck at the house. My tire never got fixed, but that is o.k. I have a ton of stuff to bet done today.

Thank you to everyone who offered to adopt Amber. She has no idea so she will be shocked when the cards start to come in!

This morning Amber told me that she wants me to cause a scene when they call her name. I asked if I could run through the stadium naked. The answer to that question was no. Then Amber tells me that If I do that I will have to register as a sex offender! LOL Oh Lord please don't let anyone look over my fence.

Our garbage man comes today so I need to go gather up some trash and clean out a few more cabinets before he comes.

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I had a date last night

So last night I called my best friend and said lets go to dinner. None of the children are home. So I got there before he did. I ordered our drinks and then he showed up. He showed up and I still looked like crap, but he was happy to see me anyway. It was nice to sit and talk. No cell phones ringing, no children, just the two of us. I so love my husband.

Yes the house is nice looking! Can you believe that very white trash people are going to live there? We have three trash cans because one is for recycling, one for trash and one for yard waste.

Betty said that she liked the Jack Daniel's bottle in the back ground of one of the pictures. Jack is Rusty's drink of choice. Rusty's doctor said that he could have one mixed drink a night. Sometimes I let him have more! LOL

Does anyone want to adopt Amber? I will send you announcement if you will send her a card. Amber is very sick of not having family.

Last night I was going through some stuff and I noticed that a picture was missing. The picture was 8x10 picture of the five of us with my mom and dad. I never hung the picture up because I am not ready to see any pictures of my dad. That picture was taken two years ago and at that point my dads mind was 90% gone. That damn cancer, the damn U.S. Army.

Well, the picture is gone. I asked Rusty if he had seen it. He said no. I asked Nikki and she said no. I called Amber and she said, " I put it in a frame and hung it up at the new house."

Great, Today I get to go to the new house and see a picture of my dad. I am not mad at Amber. I am just not ready to see my dad. He has been dead almost two years and I am still very angry at him and I still don't want to believe that he is gone.

More from the family ties that bind and gag.

My dad comes from a big Irish, Catholic family. The children are: Karen, Keith, Kevin, Katherin,Kollette,Kerry,Jane Ellen,Anne.

Karen is my dads older sister. She married an Italian and they had three boys, Chris, David and Marc. Karen now lives in Vegas and is a raging drunk. John spends most of his time in Italy where he still runs his family's business. I have not seen or heard from any of them in 18 years. Karen came to see Amber when I brought Amber home for a visit. All she said to me was " What do you think you are doing? I am not old enough to be a great Aunt"

Keith. My dad. Dead

Kevin is a physco Vietnam vet. Kevin actually watched me when he came back from Vietnam. Kevin did not speak for something like 5 years. Gee is that why I did not learn to speak until I was three? My day care provider was a physco Vietnam vet who did not speak. Kevin has three children: Kelley, I can't remember her name and a boy named Mike. I have not seen or heard from them in over 18 years. I did hear that one of the girls went into the convent.

Out of the other remaining four I know that one is dead. Jane was adopted so she is only about 5 years older then me. I have no idea where she is or what she is doing. Anne is by my grandfathers second wife and is only a few years older then Amber. I have no idea what happened to her.

Today I need to go buy a crate and some bubble wrap. I am going to pack up my light houses for good. I will not have room for them at the new house so I want to make sure that they are safe.

Here is the link to the light houses that I collect.

http://www.harbourlights.com/catalog/2008/index.htm

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look at us now

Well what do you think? Here is a picture of our new house, and some new pictures of the babies! I was just looking at the pictures of when we first got them and I can't believe how big they are. I guess I don't see it because I am with them all the time. The kittens should be ready to go back to the shelter by the end of June. Then they will get fixed, and I think I have homes for both of them! That is two more lives that I saved.

So yesterday I asked amber if she was ever going to mail out her graduation announcements. Amber said " well do you have any addresses and who am I suppose to mail them to? I have two grandmother's and that is it."

HMMM isn't this why I did not want to waste the money one those announcements? I now have 20 announcements and no family to send them to.

Think about this. Between Rusty and I we have my mother. Rusty has a brother, but they don't speak. I have a sister but we don't speak. We each have aunts and uncles, but we never see them! Maybe I can go buy some cut out figures of people and call them our relatives. I can prop them up in chairs, and at the counter? They would not eat much.

 Today is much of the same for me. I need to pack a few more items. Ambers old boyfriend Sam is coming over to help me move some stuff, so that will be nice.

There is a new boy sniffing around Amber. His name is Jake and they go to school together. So Jake calls Amber last night and they ended up going to the pool for a few hours. I am interested to actually meet this boy. I wonder if he will be able to hang?

Well, the realtor that ended up with our house came by yesterday. He did not actually give us a move out date. We are holding for this program that they have called cash for keys. This is where the bank pays renters to move out. O.K. yes I know that we have a new place, but the realtor does not know that and we can use all the extra money we can get. So I am waiting to hear from him.

Rusty sold a scope on e bay yesterday. Bless his heart. He really liked that scope, but he said that he does not have the right rifle to mount it on anyway.

Anyway, life and time march on and my day is waiting for me to get it started.

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