pissed off

So I go into work last night and I was beat, but hey that is life. Around 9 p.m. another worker offers to go get us some coffee. I was cool, it is a little chilly here so I could use a warm up.

Then I started feeling funny and I thought nothing of it. I came home, wrote some in my journal and tried to get some sleep.

I went to bed and I thought that my heart was going to jump out of my chest and at the same time it felt like a very heavy weight on my chest. I could not turn my mind off and then before I knew it the alarm clock was going off. So I got up with the children.

Tony and Rusty come outside and asked me if I got any sleep and I told them no. I told them how I felt durning the night and by that time I had the shakes and I felt so funny.

Rusty and Tony look at each other and they asked me what I took. I was like are you talking about? They told me that it sounded like I was on speed. Well... as it turns out the gal that went to get the coffee is a speeder. ( which I did not know!) So she either slipt it in my coffee or put it in her coffee and gave me the wrong cup. Either way I am pissed. I got up at 6 a.m. on Sunday and it is now 11 p.m. on Monday and I still have not slept.

I am wondering what is going to happen when I come down? Am I going to crash and burn? Rusty is pissed off too because I am now so scared to drive because what if I crash while I am driving. I have never done speed before so this is all new to me.

I can say one thing for sure. I will never accept anything from another office worker again. I can't do that to myself or to my family.

So here i sit wondering if I am ever going to get some sleep.

Well I guess I will go do something...... after all I am wide awake.