will someone please

Will someone please give me a life! I told Rusty today that I am going to scream if I have to spend one more in this house. I have not gotten dressed or done my hair all week. I have done nothing but sit around this house.

So Rusty is like well what do you want to do? I want to go hiking or go explore a new place. I want to get out in the fresh air and do something.

Then Rusty says well we will have to wait for the girls to get home so they can watch Ryan. Well I can't wait until the girls get home because then Amber has to go to work and Nikki will have something to do.

I guess I should explain. We have a handicap son. So we are very limited on what we can do unless we have a sitter for him.

I must be a bad mom because I suggested that we start looking for someone to come in a few days a week and care for him just so that we can go do something.

Everytime I suggest we do something they question comes up, then what will we do Ryan. So we never do anything.

o.k. Rusty gets to do stuff. He went out and watched football with the guys or he will go do whatever. Guess who is left at home?

I guess I am being selfish because I want to start living my life instead of being tied down....forever.

Rusty got to travel the world and do cool shit while he was in the service. When will it be my turn to do cool shit?

Oh forget it. I guess I am the only mom in the world that wants someone else to watch their handicap child so they can have a life.

we are a sick family

Well as you can guess from the picture. I started my cycle. Perfect ending to perfect day! LOL Actually my day has not been that bad.

I got the hard part of the quil finished today. So that is a good thing.

One of our friend brought up some stuff to store in our garage and one of the items that he stored was an abe lounge. So Amber and I got it out of the box and now I am using it! I have a six pack, the six pack is just hidden under the pony keg.

Rusty and I decided to give away some of his mothers formal dresses. So I advertised " free plus size dress to any military wife" then I went on to discribe the dress. This GUY answered the add and was asking a lot of questions about the dress and then asked what I wlooked like. So I discribed the dress and then told him that I was 5'4" abd 120 pounds! Guys can be such freaks.

This afternoon we had a lot of sales people calling. Amber just loves talking to these people. Here is how one conversation went

Hello

hold on...BILLY get in here if you drop that on your sister I am gunna whip you

o.k. what were you saying oh hold on BILLY bring me my belt what did I tell you. Dont you dare bite the dog.

Sales person hung up.

This is Ambers new favorite past time! LOL

Rusty read the comments that everyone left about my mom. He said that there was not much grey area there! It said it reminded him of that movie Good morning Vietnam!

For some reason my spell check is not working. So please excuse my spelling it sucks!

 

why am I awake?

I have no idea why I woke up at 4:22 a.m., but here I sit.

I did get my sewing machine to work, howevewr I think it is on its last leg. I did mention that if Santa wanted to bring me a new sewing machine that I would not bitch to much!

Sex. Well after I got into the bed last night I got me some! LOL As soon as I hit the bed I was like hmmmm. I must admit that sex is so good when you have not had it in a while!

Should I be doing something productive? But what can I do if everyone else is sleeping? I guess I will go start the laundry.

We must get the bathroom finished today. We just need to put up the vent covers and hang the mirror. Tile is still away out there.

So last night I mentiioned to Rusty tht I had talked to my mom. She said that she did o.k. on her first day back at work. However she did say that Kailey is not dealing well with her grandpas passing. Good. I had wished that upon her. When my mom asked how the girls were doing and I told her that they were doing good, she then said well that is because they are not here dealing with it. What kind of comment is that?

My mom also told me that if I want to go to Mexico and help spread some of my dad ashes to please let her know. I was also told that kailey would not be there. Rusty thinks that I should go. I do not want to go. I do not feel the need to go scatter my dads ashes.

Rusty kept saying that I should go. So finally I asked him how it felt to last BOTH of his parents to last year. He said that it felt like crap. So I asked him why he thinks I should go to Mexico just to feel like crap?

I did get on line and look at air fare, but I am not going to go.

I think I am going to try to go back to bed and to get some sleep.

feeling better

 So I have finally found some time to sew and my bloomimg machine keep jamming! I need to take it apart and look at it. What I really need is to get this quilt finished so that I can start on Christmas quilts!

Rusty and I got some yard work done today and it looks so much better. I swear it has been so hot most of the summer, so we have not been able to do much.

Last night I got my 1/1000 part of the garage cleaned out. I just love having my wash area clean. O.K. lets face it I do not actually clean. If does not belong to me and no one claimed it then I just threw it away.

Well my eyes and teeth are still in my head which is a good thing. I am still not in the mood for sex and that is all that is new here.

where was I?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJK7qiKOwss&NR

Where was I on September 11, 2001?

Well my story actually starts a few days earlier. My mother and fater in law had just moved in with us. They were moving back to the United States, see they had lived in Middle East for 20 years.

Rusty had to the field and was going to be gone for a week.

It was just another day here. I was up trying to get the children ready for school. My father in law ( rick) was playing a computer game.

That was a good day for me because the children were actually ready early and I allowed them to watch t.v. before they went to school.

Then the phone rang. Rick looked at the caller i.d. and said that it was someone named McMahan. I knew something was wrong, because my mom never calls me early in the morning. So I told Rick to answer the phone.

When I got on the phone my mom asked me if I had the t.v. on. I told her yes that the children were watching cartoons. My mom told me to turn on the news because the world trade center had just been bombed. America was under attack.

Rick and I were fighting over the remote trying to get the other t.v. on. All I could do was stand there in shock. All Rick did was yell those damn rag heads.

Then it hit me. Was Rusty coming back from the field or was he going to be deployed right away? We did not know.

I had to get myself together because I had children to take to school. So off to school they went. Life must go on.

When I got back from dropping the children off the Pentigon had been bombed. I could not believe all of this was happening. We live in America. The great melting pot of the world. This is America.

A few hours later Amber calls me from school and she was crying. She said that the school kept showing the news. Rick went and got Amber from school.

Life marched on. I was not going to allow those ass holes to stop my life. Rusty did come home later that week, but was deployed two months later to Iraq.

If it was not for all of this I would have missed the oppertunity to help a friend out. If it was not for all ofthis I would never would have started volunteering to help other military families in need. I also would have missed the oppertunity to get to know my in laws before they died.

I will say this. People in America say if this happens again.... They are wrong. It is not if it is when. When people say "God bless America" They need to remember that God HAS blessed America.

I do not need to see pictures of the twin towers to remind me of what happend. I just need to look around an empty house. All of our friends are in Iraq right now. I KNOW why they are there.

I am going to explode

I went to bed last night feeling like crap. I got up this morning feeling like crap.

I finally went to the doctors. The nurse hand me this piece of paper to fill out and one of the question said what is your complaint. So I wrote: My teeth and eyes are going to pop out of my head.

The nurse laughed and told me that I was not going to explode. Anyway the whole left side of my face is infected. If there is something there, then it is infected.

So off I go to get the perscription filled. The first place I went told me that I could pick up the perscription tomorrw. OH I so do not think so. The next place I went to was closed. Finally the third place I went was open!

I am going to go sit and do nothing. I so hope that hubby does not want sex tonight. He may being having it alone.

I must laugh

Sometimes you just have to sit back and laugh at your children! Today is one of those days.

Nikki wanted to go to the football game and the dance. Well they were up at the high school. So she could go to the football game, but not the dance since Nikki does not have a high school i.d.

So today Amber really looked at everyone in her classes until she found someone that looks like Nikki. Then she borrowed that girls i.d. so Nikki could get into the dance. I just hope that they do not get busted!

Not to much else has gone on today. We went to base to pick up some wood, and look for a few gifts, but there really were not any good gifts to buy.

That is my day. How dull! Thats o.k. because I need some down time.