sun worshiping and good bye

Saturday was so nice. George and I went to beach. Man I can't explain how nice it is to lay on the sand naked and just be in the moment. For two hours all I could hear was the sound of the ocean. For two hours all I could feel was the sun baking my body. I so needed that. After all the rain we got..... well I just needed to soak up the sun.

This weekend a bunch of us are going to go back to the nude beach. Betty, you asked what nude beach we go to. We go to San Onofre. It is right next to the nuclear power plant.

Saturday night we had a going away post for the marines. The vfw really took care of them. The marines drank $1,300 worth of alcohol and it was all donated!

I also got to pass out three quilts. I think I really shocked them. I still came up short, but the other marines were told that they would get their's in the mail.

I was talking some friends.... that I don't get to see enough.... when Rusty had all the marines gather around so he could introduce them. The gentlemen said man they are all babies. His wife and so were you when you were in. Yes we are sending our boy's and girls back to war.

Nikki came to me last night and said that she is not sure if she wants to go on the mission trip. I told her that she does not have to go if she does not want to. Inside I was wondering what was going on.

I mentioned this to Rusty and he said what I was thinking. Is this because of her boyfriend? Nikki's boyfriend is not allowed to go on the trip because his mother can't go and watch over him. The boyfriends mother must go everywhere with her children. I feel sorry for them.

I just hope that Nikki changes her mind and go on the trip. I don't think a stupid boy should be allowed to steal her dreams.

Today I have some stuff to do around here and then if it is nice again I am going to go worship the sun in my birthday suit..... in my back yard. I hope this nice weather hold out. I am so sick of winter.

I am craving popcorn, so I think I am going to go make some. Here's a little tid bit about me. I still use a popcorn popper and I only buy organic popcorn. I know I am strange, but that is what makes me, me.

AOL has been giving me problems today so I am getting around to journals, it is just taking me a while. AOHELL won't even let me use spell check! Sorry for all my spelling oops. I suck at spelling.

 

good morning sun

The alarm went off at 5:30 this morning and when I looked out the window the sun was starting to come up! Could it be that the day's are finally getting longer? I love the sun.

Yesterday Amber's boyfriend Sam stopped by. Sam was applying for job at some of the fast food restaurants over by us. He has finally hit reality. Sam realizes that it will only be for a few months. Once summer hits he is going to go work at the boy scout camp. The funny thing is Rusty went to the same boy scout camp. Man this is a small world.

I talked with Lyn a little more, and I am really thinking about her offer.

I only got one quilt done yesterday. I started sewing the other one and got half way through it when I realized that I was sewing it inside out, So I had to take it apart. That is what I get for rushing.

I have some running around that I need to get done, but I am going to have to wait until the girls get home. The last thing I need is yet another ticket. Maybe in a few weeks I can go get my car fixed. Why do I have to get it smogged? Can't I be above the law?

George and have decided that we need a girls day out. So we are going to wait until next weekend, because Beth will be coming in on Friday. So we have decided to go to San Juan Capistrano and see all the joys of this little town. Then we are going to go to the nude beach. I know it will be a little bit chilly, but we just want to go worship the sun. Maybe I will take the cameras and have the girls take some pictures of me. That would make a nice valentines gift for Rusty! Well crap I just looked at the calendar. If want pictures then we will have to go this weekend.

Oh speaking of valentines day I need to find out if we still have a tarp. I want to break out the chocolate body paint and maybe the stuff to make a Sunday. If Rusty is going to have another heart attack then it is going to be in our bed. What a better way to go.

O.K. Marty wanted me to write 10 things about myself that I proud of. Here is my list.

1. I am proud of the fact that I can still put my legs behind my head.

2. I am proud of the fact that I do look so much younger then Rusty. I like people thinking that I have a sugar daddy.

3. I am proud of the fact that I have compassion for animals.

4. I proud of the fact that I can quilt.

5. I am proud of the fact that I speak my mind.... even if people don't like it.

6. I am proud of the fact that I can dress up and go out and turn head and give people a shock. Did I mention that I found a pill box hat!

7. I am proud of the fact that  I can cook comfort foods.

8. I am proud of the fact that I love to have fun.

9. I am proud that I have finally learned to appreciate my naturally curly hair.

10. I am proud of the fact that I have not killed my teenagers yet.

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about the past

Yesterday Rusty asked me why I was applying for the jobs that I was applying for. I said well what else do you want me to apply for ceo? Rusty said yes. Then he brought up the past.

Lets go back several years.

What seems like a life time ago I met two ladies that had started a charity to help the military here in San Diego. I really believed in what they were doing, so I asked if I could volunteer to help them.

I volunteered for a year. The charity grew and I helped get new programs off the ground, and we were growing very fast.

I would attend dinner's and do all the formal stuff. It was great! People knew me and they knew that they could count on me. I was no longer the gunny's wife, I finally had a name and Rusty was my eye candy.

I watched this charity grow and grew to love everything about it. I loved the people I was working with, and the people I was helping.

Over time I became a paid employee. The money was good, but I can honestly say that I would do it all with out the money because I had.

I was really enjoying my job as director of services for northern San Diego.

Then one day I was asked to go over to my bosses house. I was to pick her up and take her to rehab. I so did not want to do this, but I knew it had to be done.

My bosses husband was being brought home..... he was out on ship. So the following day I went back to my bosses house and I cleaned everything up. I figured her husband would not want to come home and see her booze bottles everywhere.

While I was doing that Rusty went down to get her Husband and give him a ride home.

I got a phone call for another lady that I worked with and she asked me to bring all of my bosses paper work down to San Diego.

While I was gathering everything up I discovered that my boss was embezzling money.

I did not take the paper work to San Diego that day. I took it all home. I made dinner and got the children in bed. I walked up and turned the t.v. off and said " Rusty we need to talk".

Rusty knew something was up by the look on my face. I laid all the paper out in front of him and just started showing him everything.

Now I had to choose. Do I cover it up or do I become a whistle blower?

I chose to become a whistle blower.

Over the next few weeks the fall out from everything was more then I could handle. I was fired, called every name in the book and then they tried to come after me.

I cried the entire two weeks. Rusty finally had to take on my battle.

I lost my job, I lost people that I thought were my friends, but most of all I lost out helping people.

I swore I would never do this again.

My boss ended up getting a divorce and eventually everyone else that was involved got fired. They just wiped the slate clean and started again, and this charity is still going strong.

A year after this fall out I went into the animal shelter and volunteered to be a foster mom for kittens. This really shocked Rusty. I just explained to him that by fostering I am still doing something, but that I far enough way from everything that I will not get hurt.

Yesterday Lyn offered me a job as director for her horse and rare dog rescue. Lyn's husband is having some health issues right now and she can't give the time that is needed. I told Lyn that I would have to think about it. Rusty thinks I should go for it.

I just don't know. For me it would be so much easier just go flip burgers and not be involved and that way I won't get hurt again. I just don't know.

Here is what I do know. I know that I need to get off the computer and get busy. I need to pull something out for dinner, clean the cat boxes, and get two quilts finished! Can you believe that Lyn found the time to do two quilts. I am telling you guys this lady has more time then I do, and I do not know where she gets it.

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burned out

I would like to know who made this quilt. I love it. Maybe I can find the pattern for it.

Today I am going to go by Lyn's house and pick up a quilt top. I am so not in the mood to quilt. I feel like quilting has lost it's fun. When I originally started making quilts for the marines it was fun, but now it is not fun any more.

I am going to be two quilt's short. Oh well. They will just have to get mailed I guess.

Last night Rusty and I were talking about our money situation. I told Rusty that I sat down with the bills and that we will be fine. It is just going to be tight for a few months.

I had Rusty go to his old bank and make sure that his accounts were still good. We have decided that I will give Rusty a set amount every payday, and that is all he gets. It was way to crazy trying to have two people manage the money.

Last night Rusty said something to me that meant a lot to me. He said that he was sorry for putting us in this situation and that he is sorry for all the bad choices he made. 

That meant so much to me. With that said it is time to move on.

I have applied for a few jobs with the school system. I would like to work for school's because then I would be off when the children are off. I just know that things are going to get crazy with Rusty, Amber and I working. Nikki is also looking for a job.

I just hope that we can work out everyone schedules so that someone can be home with Ryan otherwise it look's like I won't be working all that much.

Right now I have a black cat sitting here watching the screen. At any second now he will jump and try to chase the letters. I know that I should get a life, but for now I am going to enjoy the time that I am able to stay locked up in the house.

Next week Rusty will be in 29 palms for the week. I wish I was going, but no can do. I am however going to give Rusty some extra money to go buy Ryan two Christmas presents. That's right I said Christmas.

The last time I was at the exchange they had cammies and a flight suit for real cheap, so I want to get them now before they are sold out or the price goes up.

Yesterday I officially signed up for Egypt. Now I need to go get my passport. I have not had a passport in years.

Well I guess I need to go do my hair and grab some tea so that I can go to Lyn's house. Maybe spending some time with a friend will bring me out of my funk.

 

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It is voting day for us

Well today is voting day here. Rusty is going to blow that vein in this head. I vote by mail. I hate getting dressed and leaving the house just so I can drive to the high school to vote. Rusty refuses to vote by mail.

So this morning Rusty leaves early so that he can get to the polls. Then it turns out that the polls are not set up yet. So Rusty calls me and complains. Then they finally get the polls set up and the ballots are not there. So Rusty calls me back and asks me for the number of the register of voters so that he can complain. I find that number for him and then ask him why he just does not vote by mail. Boy did I get an ear full on that one!

Nikki is doing good. Her super glue has turned hot pink! It looks kinda cool. I am also glad to know that I am not the only mom who has spent countless hours in the er.

I was reading another journal and that journal lead me to another journal where there are asking a question for anyone to answer. The question is "what is your favorite family spot to visit"

This is an easy one for me. I love going down to Point Loma and walking on the cliffs. All of the children even Ryan like going down there. Rusty does not walk down to the cliffs with us, but he does stand at the top and laugh at us!

There is something about standing on the edge of a huge rock and looking down into the swirling ocean that just give me a thrill. I really like it when the waves come up and hit us.

I do not have a fear of being knocked into the ocean or being eaten by a shark. I could spend hours just watching the waves.

Lyn from the ukgal, the next time you are in San Diego I would love to take you to the cliffs. I know why don't you just ask hubby to getstationed out here!

I reposted some pictures of the cliffs.

Berkly has always been one of those places that try's to push the envelope as far as they can. Well the city of Berkly has banned the Marines for going to the college to recruit. Berkly also gave a permit for people to block and protest outside of the Marine Corps recruiting office. So the federal government has decided to pull all of the federal funding for the city of Berkly. There will be not money for school lunch's, for roads, no money for anything. The city of Berkly is now rethinking their ban against the marines.

Today I have some more cleaning to get done and then I will need to cook some dead cow for dinner. I am actually thinking about starting to walk the dogs. I know that it would do both of us some good, but I so hate cold weather and it is still cold here. Well cold for us.

I swear I was interviewed for this video. It speaks volumes and I so agree with the words to this song.

 

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more Saturdat, Aids and friends

Saturday night Rusty and I went out to dinner. Nothing fancy, just a little local place. All we wanted to do was chill and spend a little time together. Then Rusty's phone rings. It is Nikki, she cut her face and needs to go get stitches. So much for dinner.

We get home and Nikki has this nice cut on her face. Nikki was sitting on the floor and one of the dogs jumped off the sofa and bumped Nikki's face right into the corner of the coffee table.

I made Rusty take Nikki to the hospital. Oh Rusty was so pissed off, he said that Nikki would be fine and that I was over reacting. He took Nikki. They ended up super gluing her face and gave her an antibiotic.

Rusty and I continued to argue over weather or not Nikki needed to go to the hospital. I finally gave up the fight and said " Well tell you what I will take care of the girls and you can tell Ryan to suck it every time he gets sick". Why are moms the one who have to take children to the hospital.

Just in the last five years I swear I have spent years just sitting in the e.r.

Sunday came and I had to run and pick up a few more donations and then I headed home. It was very cold and wet here, so I just wanted to stay locked in the house.

Rusty ordered some pizza for lunch and we just chilled for the rest of the day.

I did have to run to walmart to pick up a few things. I ran into Lyn there.

Lyn has gotten two quilt tops done and I have gotten one quilt all the way done. I need to go over to Lyns house and pick up the quilt tops so that I can get them quilted. Then we have come to the conclusion that if we do not get that fourth quilt done then it can be mailed to whomever.

Lyn told me that I look like shit and that I should go home and go to bed. Now only a friends can tell you that! LOL I told her that I agreed with her, but that we had better get some sun soon. I am so sick of this rain and of the cloudy sky. I need my sun! If the sun comes out at all today I am going to go sit in it.

Then Lyn tells me that one of our friends was catching a lot shit today. Warren, our friend, has aids. Whatever, I knew that. Well it seems that several people down at the post do not want Warren doing anything down there because they are scared that he spread his aids.

People are so stupid. I hate stupid people. I told Rusty last night that I was sick of the way people treated Warren. The last time Warren was in the hospital I was the only one who went to see him!

So today I am going to open the house u and air it out. I have dinner in the crock pot, and brownies in the oven. I am on my third load of laundry for the day. So I guess I am off to a good start.

Before I forget I would like to give a shout out to Gerry who commented on me in her blog. Thanks for thinking of me and giving me an award! Here is the link, so everyone can check it out!

http://journals.aol.com/gehi6/daughters-of-the-shadow-men/entries/2008/02/03/nice-matters-most.../1889

back away from the swarovski

Yesterday was a very interesting day. Yes I think interesting would be a good word. Oh where do I start.

Yesterday I needed to up and moving, I had so much to do. I hit the ground at 4 a.m.

Rusty and I are standing in kitchen hugging each other and talking about what we each had to do. I ran down my list and then I mentioned that I had to drive the car that was not registered, had no brake lights or tail lights, no horn and no gas.

Amber suggested that I just coast down hill and wave my middle finger as I coast through the intersection to the gas station. I thought it sounded like a good idea. I thought Rusty was going to have a heart attack.

My first was the dmv. That was very interesting. I got a one day temp pass to drive the car. O.K. to be technical  the pass says that I can drive it to shop to get the car smogged. Yea whatever.

I did a few more little things and then it was time to head down to base.

I get to base and the first stop is going to be McDonalds. I was starving. That place was packed! What marines have to eat? I thought they ran on motivation.

Then it was off to the commissary. One the way to the commissary Rusty called me and asked me what I was doing, and i told him I was driving. Duh.

So Rusty wanted to meet and have lunch. Cool. So I kept driving since now I have to drive all the way through base! I told Rusty that I needed to get off the phone because I was about to get pulled over.

Sure enough I got pulled over by an MP! Do you want to guess for what?! LOL Yep, everything that Rusty and I talked about. This poor MP. He was pulling a double and he looked so confused that I had a retired air force sticker and a dav dependent id card on a marine base. I think he was scared to ask.

Then Rusty said that he would go to the commissary with me. Rusty can find up front parking because he has handi cap plates. I had to park in the back 40! So I was walking up to meet Rusty and I yelled " hey sugar daddy wait for me!". Rusty just gave me the look of "I can't believe you said that.

Then I had to go to the home store and look at the Swarovski. The store use to have a graduation set that I wanted to get for Amber. They still had it! I was so excited. The exchange even said that they had another one in the back, so I thinking about going and buying it and putting it up for Nikki. I know my luck and I don't want that piece to be retired.

I love Swarovski more then anything. I have several pieces and even jewelry by them!, Anyway I got to the check out lane I am not kidding you EVERYONE asked to see what piece I had bought. Am I the only one who buys crystal? I thought I was being mobbed.

Then it was off to the shelter to pick up the kittens! They were so happy to see me, and I was so happy to see them.

Then I had to go get CJ. I must have seen five cops! I thought about just holding the ticket out the window, so that all the mp's would know that I had already been ticketed!

I was worn out when I got home.

Then Deb ( Nikki's other mom) calls me. There is a church yard sale tomorrow and then a tail gating party on Sunday! All of the money will go to the mission trips. So I was on the phone for almost 2 hours trying to get donations for the tail gating party. I did get a lot donated! I was kinda shocked at how nice the community was.

Now I am planning on doing helping them organize a spaghetti dinner. Why do I do this to myself. I will run myself ragged before this mission trip is paid for.

I was up early today because we did have a lot of stuff to take down to the church and then I had to run around and pick up some donations.

Tomorrow I still need to go get a few more donations and then I am going to fall into bed and crash.

I thought a stay at home mom stayed at home!

 

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