Much better

I am feeling much better today. Sleep really does the body good! LOL

I am going to tell my boss what happened. I think that he should know since this happened at his office. So we will see what he does with the info.

Well we did not get a letter from the ex and his wife, instead we got a letter from the grandparents. Inclosed in the letter was a wedding picture of the ex and new wife. Man the girls tore her up. The caled her everything from but ugly to stupid. I just laughed, but not in front of them. Anyway there is a return letter going out. I still think my ex is a chicken shit, because he did not write. oh well

Rusty just told me that I have coloring back in my face! Maybe after I take a shower I wont stink any more!

Anyway, I am off to get Ryan started on his school work and I have a ton of house work to get done. Nothing new there.

I am so thankful that I am back to my old self

6 hours

Well I called a friend last night and asked him if this "chick" was a speeder. He laughed and asked why, so I told him. He said that he has never seen her use, but that that he has wondered bout that for a while.

my friend told me to take some b12 because that is what they give people in the hospital. I guess it is suppose to help level you out. So I took some and I got 6 hours of sleep! I have never been so happy.

I am still wiped out. I feel so bad, I smell, my joints hurt, and I want to get some more sleep! So I am going to take some more b12 in a little while. I really need to get my body back on trac.

This sucks and I dont know how people can do speed.

Well, when life gets you down you should laugh. So on a "good" note I got the house CLEANED! I even cleaned out my closet. Can you believe that I found clothes that I forgot that I had? Man the closet looks so bare, but I really needed to clean it out anyway.

Yesterday Rusty took Rascle ( our dog) to the beauty shop. So she got a bath, got her nails cut, her teeth brushed, and she even got her ears cleaned out! I tokd Rusty to buy her a new pink collar. So Rascle came home smelling and looking so good. LOL we really do spoil our pets.

Well I am going to go sit on the sofa and maybe I will get some rest. I do not the energy that I had yesterday.

pissed off

So I go into work last night and I was beat, but hey that is life. Around 9 p.m. another worker offers to go get us some coffee. I was cool, it is a little chilly here so I could use a warm up.

Then I started feeling funny and I thought nothing of it. I came home, wrote some in my journal and tried to get some sleep.

I went to bed and I thought that my heart was going to jump out of my chest and at the same time it felt like a very heavy weight on my chest. I could not turn my mind off and then before I knew it the alarm clock was going off. So I got up with the children.

Tony and Rusty come outside and asked me if I got any sleep and I told them no. I told them how I felt durning the night and by that time I had the shakes and I felt so funny.

Rusty and Tony look at each other and they asked me what I took. I was like are you talking about? They told me that it sounded like I was on speed. Well... as it turns out the gal that went to get the coffee is a speeder. ( which I did not know!) So she either slipt it in my coffee or put it in her coffee and gave me the wrong cup. Either way I am pissed. I got up at 6 a.m. on Sunday and it is now 11 p.m. on Monday and I still have not slept.

I am wondering what is going to happen when I come down? Am I going to crash and burn? Rusty is pissed off too because I am now so scared to drive because what if I crash while I am driving. I have never done speed before so this is all new to me.

I can say one thing for sure. I will never accept anything from another office worker again. I can't do that to myself or to my family.

So here i sit wondering if I am ever going to get some sleep.

Well I guess I will go do something...... after all I am wide awake.

Awesome day!!!!!

I cant believe how great my day was!

Today we went over to help some friends finish putting a roof on. Not only did we help , but our friend ray and his family came to help! This might not sound like much, but one day we took ray's children over to ride some horses, and Ray asked what the deal was with the roof. So I told him that Rusty and Doug had started it, but then Rusty had his heart attack. So Ray volunteered to come over and help roof!

Once again I know that someone is going to think this strange, But for one man to offer to help out someone he has known for 5 minutes, and then follow through is amazing. I was just so happy to see people pulling together to help someone else out. It was even nice to see Rusty up there working. He was not allowed to carry anything, but he was allowed to nail! LOL I know Rusty must of had a blast as he tried to get back to his old self.

Doug and his wife ( the people who we helped out) have a baby girl about 3 months old. I so enjoyed just walking around holding this baby! I got to feed her and change her and put her down for a nap! I told Rusty that I wanted a baby for Christmas, he said that the store that sells them is no longer open. Then Ray wanted to know how much crack I was smoking! I really had a good time cuddling the baby, But I am also glad that I am done.

Work went really well today. I was running so late from roofing, but my boss was like dont worry about it because no one is here. It was a slow night, but we got a lot done and we have nothing left for Thursday!!!! I also did some cleaning around the office and man did it need it! The office is starting to look good. My boss John is so funny! I told him that I was going to take the cleaning rags and one of the trash cans home so that I could get them washed. John told me to keep track of how long it took me so that he could pay me for it. What ever. I do so much laundry that a few rags are not going to break me, and washing a trash can is no big deal. well it is no big deal to me.

Tony leaves in the morning and I am going to miss him so much. I think that it is great that Rusty has friends that he can just hang out with. Tony is awesome and I am going to miss him so much.

Well I want a smoke and then I need to get to bed. I am just so glad that Rusty is the one getting up with the children. Now mommy is not such a grouch because she only got a few hours of sleep!

I am so thankful that I got to see people coming together to help other people and no one expected anything in return. I guess the sense of community and family was really felt today.

good day

Well my girlfriend and I got up early and hit some awesome yard sales! I scored so much stuff for ME!!!!! I did get this little black dress for the girls. Nikki is going to wear it on friday and Amber wants to wear it to homecoming. I guess I will get my one dollar out of the dress!

Our friend Ray and his family are coming over in the morning. Then we are all heading over to another friend house to help put a roof on. I have never put a roof on a house so I think I am going to hang out with the children.

Today we ran into some people that we have not seen in a very long time and they could not believe how old Rusty looked. They knew nothing of the heart attacks or anything. So........ what can I say he looks old.

This will be the last weekend that we get to spend with Tony. Tony leaves on Monday and I am going to miss him. it is so true that you can count your true friends on one hand. Tony is one of those friends. I hate to see him go, but I am so glad that we had the time to spend together.

Well rusty went and bought shrimp for dinner, so I think that I am going to go eat.

I am so thankful for old friends.

Old friends are like old jeans they never wear out!

doing laundry

Well my dad is going to be slow, and I am happy about that! I have started doing laundry, which never ends around here! other then that, I manot sure what I am going to do. I do not even know if I want to get dressed. :0)

I am still not sure what to think about the ex's wife call, so I am just going to have to sit back and see if he writes.

We are STILL having to flush Rustys ears on top of coning, but yesterday we actually got dried blood out of his ear! It was so gross, but I am happy that the stuff is coming out. I still cant believe how much crap is in the ear.

I dont think I want to do school work today. Ryan did pass his spelling test yesterday, so I think I am going to give him the day off! That is one joy of home schooling! Did anyone see Dr. Phil the other day where he actually said homeschooling is awesome for children? I was so shocked! I thought that he would be against it, but I guess you cant hide the truth.

Rusty is off and running. He has so much to get done today. One of the things on his list to do is to get a new screen door. I think we are the only family that has to get a new screen door every year.

Well that cats have been in rare form this week. It seems that they oldest cat has tought the youngest cat about hunting. Since the weather here has not been that great we have had a few lizards come in. Well they did not leave alive. The cats have been catching them, playing with them and then hiding the bodies. So now we really have to watch them and make sure that we get rid of the bodies! I have such good cats, so I guess they are earning their keep.

i am off to do????? who knows! ( more laundry!)

up early

Well I am up and moving. For some reason I could not sleep last night, so I let Rusty sleep in and I got up with the children. I know my butt will be dragging later on.

I am still in shock over the phone call and I am still not sure what to make of it. I am really going to have to ponder this and see if they do actually send a card. who knows, maybe they will go back into the hole from which they came?

I am going to go get started on my day. I need to do some laundry, take out the trash, unload the dishwasher..... the list goes on. I guess it is true that a stay home mom works more then a mom that goes to work.

I am off to start my day.