theres no sun today!

Yesterday I was sunning my body. I was just soaking up the sun and the warmth. Today it is darn right cold and it is raining! BRRR.

So I decided to make the most of the rain. I sewed the top to a quilted changing pad. The camera did not capture very well. It is actually purple and white. Next I am going to start on another quilt.

On Monday Rusty gave me my valentines gift. I got an R.Lee Ermy action figure, and it is the extra salty one, so there is a warning label on it. I know I am strange but I love my action figures. Nikki got me a candle holder and Amber made me a card. Life is good.

I talked to Rusty this morning and 29 palms got hit with a bad storm and they are even getting snow out there. The only thing I can say about all of this bad weather is that the water falls should be running this year.

We have beautiful waterfalls about 10 minutes from our house. In the summer the children and I will go out there and just hang out there all afternoon. However last year the falls were dry and I was really disappointed.

I think I am going to order pizza for dinner tonight. I am just not in the mood to cook.

So goes my boring life. It is time for me to get back to my sewing.

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show me your plate

Before I get started on how my day is going I want to post a few pictures.

Faze Daze has been talking about her collection of egg plates. Now she has way more then me. I actually never knew I needed one until mine was given to me. My mother in law gave me this plate. All I know about it is that it is carnival glass. Rusty does not remember this plate, so he is guessing that it game from his grandmother on his mothers side.

I still do not use this plate very often. Don't get me wrong. I get the plate out and I make the eggs, but the marines usually eat all of them before they make it to the plate. And why does this plate have a cut out for 13 eggs?

Betty from Koda's Corgi tales said that there is a contest for pictures of love and tenderness. Now I am sure this means different things to everyone. So here are my pictures for that.

See all of these young people. These are all marines that are getting ready to go back to Iraq. To me love is and was passing out the quilts and giving them a good time! Yes, these are children that our defending our country.

This is Jake and Larry. Larry's real name is Nikki, but since we have to many Nikki's so Rusty changed her name to Larry. The sad thing is Larry responses to her name! This picture was taken the night of the going away party. These two are not just friends they are comrades in arms.

                               

So last night did not go as planned, but then again that is no huge surprise.

Our landlord, Tim called me yesterday. When we rented this house from him, we agreed to pay to have the floors in the downstairs put in. We were suppose to do that next week.

So Tim called and said. "Instead of putting the floors in like we had talked about I have something else in mind. I have enough tile to tile your whole downstairs, and all you would have to do is pay for labor. That is going to be $1,500." I said that sounded good to me.

Then Tim asked me if I could give him the money that night. I told Tim that I could give him part of it later on, and that I could give him the rest of it tomorrow. He said that was fine, and went on to tell me that 9 people did not pay their rent this month. so I told him no problem, I also told him that next week we could pay March's rent if it would help him out. Tim said if we did that then he would knock $300 off our rent! Hell that is a bargain for us.

After talking with Tim for a while, he told me why they are hurting so much. This poor family has had two deaths month and all the air fair to go back east was killing them. I knew that they had gone back east, but he never said what he was going for. Oh well, I guess it is a win win situation.

Then Amber and Sam were having an argument. So I did what any good mom would do. I sat outside Amber's door and listened to the whole thing. Amber is so wrong in this fight! So this morning I told Amber that. So now I am bad mom because I am not taking her side. I just ignored her. Sam is right and she is wrong.

Miles came up last night and got bookworm loaded for me. I swear this was the hardest game to install. Now my girlfriend downloaded the game and she had no problems. O.K. maybe we are just all idiots.

Then I still had to go to wal mart. The girls have the car during the day, so off to wal mart I went. I was so tired when I got home that I just left everything by the front door.

This morning I get up and call Rusty and he is ready for his sale today. Man I wish I was there with him.

I started putting everything away while the children were getting ready for school. Start a load of laundry, clean out the litter box's, and had my third cup of coffee.

I go into the laundry room to find half a bottle of fabric softener spilled all over the floor! I forgot to not put the fabric softener on top of the washer. Well the house smells nice now.

Then one of the dogs puked. Great now I have to clean that up. To top it off  he could not puke on the cement oh no he had to puke on the carpet!

The rest of my is going to be busy. I have a lot of running around to do..... once the girls get home. So I am going to take advantage of the sun and the warm weather. Hell I am feeling good enough that I might actually walk the dogs. Oh I should go and lay down so that this urge can leave me.

O.K. here is a song that means a lot to Rusty and I. When I hear this song it just makes me smile.

 

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Damn computer

Well I got you tube to work so at least I can listen to music before I toss the computer over the edge of the loft.

I had Rusty buy me the game book worm. Do you think we can down load it? Oh no we are both way to stupid to figure that one out. So we e mailed the place and that us feel even stupider! I swear this computer is going to have a sledge hammer taken to it.

So I called CJ. He did not answer his phone. O.K. I will call Miles. Some chick keeps answering Miles phone and she is telling me that I have the wrong number. No chick you have Miles phone and you need to give it back to him before I throw this computer at you.

All I want to do is play book worm.

Rusty left for 29 palms today. I so wish I was going with him. I love that base. However if we leave the children to their own devices then they will kill each other and we won't have any tax deductions left.

I noticed today that my hair looks like it is tie dyed. I do not know what got into me, but I decided to straighten my hair. I am telling you guys it is four different colors. My hair is naturally a dark drown with red highlights. In the summer it turns red. But since I have been letting it grow out it now goes from dark brown to strawberry blond! Oh well. I guess that is life.

I have a wal mart list that is a mile long. I told Rusty that I am going to tell the check out person to not even tell me the total because I am scared to see how much money I am going to spend.

Tonight is going to be very crazy for me. I have to drop Nikki off at the church by five because she has a meeting for her trip. While she is doing that I need to go help another gal load some furniture, and then it is off to the bank. Then I am going back to the church for ladies night out. After that I am going to drop Nikki off and go to wal mart and then I need to put gas in the kids car. Why am I paying for their gas. Oh that s right because my car still is not even registered, so I do not have a choice but to use their car.

Rusty will be gone until Friday so before then I am going to take a detoxifying bath. Rusty hates the smell of my detoxifying bath and he thinks that I am crazy.

Rusty told me yesterday that he needs new jeans and a belt. I said well your jeans and belt look fine to me. Then he took his belt off and his jeans damn near fell off of him! Rusty is almost back to the size he was when he was in the corps. My man is looking so good.

I am not going to tell you guys any more that it is up in the 80's today and that I am loving this weather. So everyone who needs a break from the snow, come on over! Lets have a huge journal land party.

O.K. my kitchen has not been touched today so I need to go give it some attention.

Seven-Day Forecast

TUE

79°F 26°C
40°F 4°C

WED

72°F 22°C
41°F 5°C

THU

67°F 19°C
35°F 1°C

FRI

70°F 21°C
35°F 1°C

SAT

73°F 22°C
37°F 2°C

SUN

76°F 24°C
41°F 5°C

MON

77°F 25°C
40°F 4°C

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sun worshiping and good bye

Saturday was so nice. George and I went to beach. Man I can't explain how nice it is to lay on the sand naked and just be in the moment. For two hours all I could hear was the sound of the ocean. For two hours all I could feel was the sun baking my body. I so needed that. After all the rain we got..... well I just needed to soak up the sun.

This weekend a bunch of us are going to go back to the nude beach. Betty, you asked what nude beach we go to. We go to San Onofre. It is right next to the nuclear power plant.

Saturday night we had a going away post for the marines. The vfw really took care of them. The marines drank $1,300 worth of alcohol and it was all donated!

I also got to pass out three quilts. I think I really shocked them. I still came up short, but the other marines were told that they would get their's in the mail.

I was talking some friends.... that I don't get to see enough.... when Rusty had all the marines gather around so he could introduce them. The gentlemen said man they are all babies. His wife and so were you when you were in. Yes we are sending our boy's and girls back to war.

Nikki came to me last night and said that she is not sure if she wants to go on the mission trip. I told her that she does not have to go if she does not want to. Inside I was wondering what was going on.

I mentioned this to Rusty and he said what I was thinking. Is this because of her boyfriend? Nikki's boyfriend is not allowed to go on the trip because his mother can't go and watch over him. The boyfriends mother must go everywhere with her children. I feel sorry for them.

I just hope that Nikki changes her mind and go on the trip. I don't think a stupid boy should be allowed to steal her dreams.

Today I have some stuff to do around here and then if it is nice again I am going to go worship the sun in my birthday suit..... in my back yard. I hope this nice weather hold out. I am so sick of winter.

I am craving popcorn, so I think I am going to go make some. Here's a little tid bit about me. I still use a popcorn popper and I only buy organic popcorn. I know I am strange, but that is what makes me, me.

AOL has been giving me problems today so I am getting around to journals, it is just taking me a while. AOHELL won't even let me use spell check! Sorry for all my spelling oops. I suck at spelling.

 

good morning sun

The alarm went off at 5:30 this morning and when I looked out the window the sun was starting to come up! Could it be that the day's are finally getting longer? I love the sun.

Yesterday Amber's boyfriend Sam stopped by. Sam was applying for job at some of the fast food restaurants over by us. He has finally hit reality. Sam realizes that it will only be for a few months. Once summer hits he is going to go work at the boy scout camp. The funny thing is Rusty went to the same boy scout camp. Man this is a small world.

I talked with Lyn a little more, and I am really thinking about her offer.

I only got one quilt done yesterday. I started sewing the other one and got half way through it when I realized that I was sewing it inside out, So I had to take it apart. That is what I get for rushing.

I have some running around that I need to get done, but I am going to have to wait until the girls get home. The last thing I need is yet another ticket. Maybe in a few weeks I can go get my car fixed. Why do I have to get it smogged? Can't I be above the law?

George and have decided that we need a girls day out. So we are going to wait until next weekend, because Beth will be coming in on Friday. So we have decided to go to San Juan Capistrano and see all the joys of this little town. Then we are going to go to the nude beach. I know it will be a little bit chilly, but we just want to go worship the sun. Maybe I will take the cameras and have the girls take some pictures of me. That would make a nice valentines gift for Rusty! Well crap I just looked at the calendar. If want pictures then we will have to go this weekend.

Oh speaking of valentines day I need to find out if we still have a tarp. I want to break out the chocolate body paint and maybe the stuff to make a Sunday. If Rusty is going to have another heart attack then it is going to be in our bed. What a better way to go.

O.K. Marty wanted me to write 10 things about myself that I proud of. Here is my list.

1. I am proud of the fact that I can still put my legs behind my head.

2. I am proud of the fact that I do look so much younger then Rusty. I like people thinking that I have a sugar daddy.

3. I am proud of the fact that I have compassion for animals.

4. I proud of the fact that I can quilt.

5. I am proud of the fact that I speak my mind.... even if people don't like it.

6. I am proud of the fact that I can dress up and go out and turn head and give people a shock. Did I mention that I found a pill box hat!

7. I am proud of the fact that  I can cook comfort foods.

8. I am proud of the fact that I love to have fun.

9. I am proud that I have finally learned to appreciate my naturally curly hair.

10. I am proud of the fact that I have not killed my teenagers yet.

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about the past

Yesterday Rusty asked me why I was applying for the jobs that I was applying for. I said well what else do you want me to apply for ceo? Rusty said yes. Then he brought up the past.

Lets go back several years.

What seems like a life time ago I met two ladies that had started a charity to help the military here in San Diego. I really believed in what they were doing, so I asked if I could volunteer to help them.

I volunteered for a year. The charity grew and I helped get new programs off the ground, and we were growing very fast.

I would attend dinner's and do all the formal stuff. It was great! People knew me and they knew that they could count on me. I was no longer the gunny's wife, I finally had a name and Rusty was my eye candy.

I watched this charity grow and grew to love everything about it. I loved the people I was working with, and the people I was helping.

Over time I became a paid employee. The money was good, but I can honestly say that I would do it all with out the money because I had.

I was really enjoying my job as director of services for northern San Diego.

Then one day I was asked to go over to my bosses house. I was to pick her up and take her to rehab. I so did not want to do this, but I knew it had to be done.

My bosses husband was being brought home..... he was out on ship. So the following day I went back to my bosses house and I cleaned everything up. I figured her husband would not want to come home and see her booze bottles everywhere.

While I was doing that Rusty went down to get her Husband and give him a ride home.

I got a phone call for another lady that I worked with and she asked me to bring all of my bosses paper work down to San Diego.

While I was gathering everything up I discovered that my boss was embezzling money.

I did not take the paper work to San Diego that day. I took it all home. I made dinner and got the children in bed. I walked up and turned the t.v. off and said " Rusty we need to talk".

Rusty knew something was up by the look on my face. I laid all the paper out in front of him and just started showing him everything.

Now I had to choose. Do I cover it up or do I become a whistle blower?

I chose to become a whistle blower.

Over the next few weeks the fall out from everything was more then I could handle. I was fired, called every name in the book and then they tried to come after me.

I cried the entire two weeks. Rusty finally had to take on my battle.

I lost my job, I lost people that I thought were my friends, but most of all I lost out helping people.

I swore I would never do this again.

My boss ended up getting a divorce and eventually everyone else that was involved got fired. They just wiped the slate clean and started again, and this charity is still going strong.

A year after this fall out I went into the animal shelter and volunteered to be a foster mom for kittens. This really shocked Rusty. I just explained to him that by fostering I am still doing something, but that I far enough way from everything that I will not get hurt.

Yesterday Lyn offered me a job as director for her horse and rare dog rescue. Lyn's husband is having some health issues right now and she can't give the time that is needed. I told Lyn that I would have to think about it. Rusty thinks I should go for it.

I just don't know. For me it would be so much easier just go flip burgers and not be involved and that way I won't get hurt again. I just don't know.

Here is what I do know. I know that I need to get off the computer and get busy. I need to pull something out for dinner, clean the cat boxes, and get two quilts finished! Can you believe that Lyn found the time to do two quilts. I am telling you guys this lady has more time then I do, and I do not know where she gets it.

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burned out

I would like to know who made this quilt. I love it. Maybe I can find the pattern for it.

Today I am going to go by Lyn's house and pick up a quilt top. I am so not in the mood to quilt. I feel like quilting has lost it's fun. When I originally started making quilts for the marines it was fun, but now it is not fun any more.

I am going to be two quilt's short. Oh well. They will just have to get mailed I guess.

Last night Rusty and I were talking about our money situation. I told Rusty that I sat down with the bills and that we will be fine. It is just going to be tight for a few months.

I had Rusty go to his old bank and make sure that his accounts were still good. We have decided that I will give Rusty a set amount every payday, and that is all he gets. It was way to crazy trying to have two people manage the money.

Last night Rusty said something to me that meant a lot to me. He said that he was sorry for putting us in this situation and that he is sorry for all the bad choices he made. 

That meant so much to me. With that said it is time to move on.

I have applied for a few jobs with the school system. I would like to work for school's because then I would be off when the children are off. I just know that things are going to get crazy with Rusty, Amber and I working. Nikki is also looking for a job.

I just hope that we can work out everyone schedules so that someone can be home with Ryan otherwise it look's like I won't be working all that much.

Right now I have a black cat sitting here watching the screen. At any second now he will jump and try to chase the letters. I know that I should get a life, but for now I am going to enjoy the time that I am able to stay locked up in the house.

Next week Rusty will be in 29 palms for the week. I wish I was going, but no can do. I am however going to give Rusty some extra money to go buy Ryan two Christmas presents. That's right I said Christmas.

The last time I was at the exchange they had cammies and a flight suit for real cheap, so I want to get them now before they are sold out or the price goes up.

Yesterday I officially signed up for Egypt. Now I need to go get my passport. I have not had a passport in years.

Well I guess I need to go do my hair and grab some tea so that I can go to Lyn's house. Maybe spending some time with a friend will bring me out of my funk.

 

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