Wednesday, January 31, 2007

kevin is home

Well it is late here but Kevin is home! Man it was nice to see him walk off the bus. I can't believe that he was gone for a year.

We all went up to march air reserve base to wave our flags and welcome the guys home. The we headed down to Camp Pendleton. It was at pendleton that we first got to see him.

It has just been an awesome day! Not only did Kevin come in, but one of our other friends called us from Iraq. Then on top of that I got to spend some time with Kevins mom and dad.

Ambers boyfriend Sam said that he felt very strange going  out with us today. When I asked him why " he said because I am an outsider. I do not know Kevin, and I am not in the military, and I am not prior military. It is like I am watching this through a fish bowl" Sam was very glad that went with us. he said that it is something he will never forget.

So last night I called the mother of the girls that was here. We talked and I ended taking the girl back to her house. I do not get! She live a few blocks from us in a 2 million dollar home! He live in the poor section! Oh well I guess it is not for me to understand. I am just glad that she went back to her parents hope and I hope nothing but the best for this girl.

I am going to go get some sleep! OH if I did not comment in your journal. I am so sorry. I have just been busy today!

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

another long day.

Well, I think I have figured out how much pain med. to take. I did not sleep through the night, but I was able to get a lot done today once I got the pain under control.

The Bummer part is I was eating a wheat think last night and I bit down just right and broke a tooth! What else can go wrong? I so do not want to know the answer to that.

Since I was feeling good today I was able to get the floors swept and mopped, ran to the store, and I got dinner cooked. So I guess I am doing good.

Well tomorrow is the big day! Kevin comes home from Iraq! I am so jazzed about that. I will finally be able to give him a hug and tell him that I have missed him and that I am proud of him.

Amber is making the welcome home signs right now, and I have all of our flags. I am as ready as I am going to get.

Oh crap I forgot to pick up some peroxide so that I can rinse my tooth out. I guess I will have to send one of the children to the store.

Well, I guess I better get moving. It looks like I will have to go to the store myself, and then I can chill the rest of the night.


Monday, January 29, 2007

an extra child

Well Rusty is working late tonight and that is a good thing. One of the girls friends showed up on our door steps and she is homeless.

I am sure that the story she gave me has another side to it, but I have not talked to her parents. So I old her that she could stay here for a week and then we will take it from there.

I also informed her that she must go to school every day, get a job and she must be in church if the doors are open. She agreed.

So I have not told Rusty yet. I just hope that he does not freak out to bad.

I went to the healing store today. Oh Rusty calls it the hippy store, but any way I found some stuff that is really helping my back! I should have gone to the hippy store and to the healer weeks ago!

I so want to go soak in a tub, but it is to early to go to bed. I think I will just go fold laundry and chill out for a while.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

had to share!

So earlier today I asked Rusty to stop by the vfw and get the Marine Corps flag.

Rusty then tells Amber that Kevin is coming in on Wednesday and not on Friday. Amber said that does not work for her since she has taken Friday off and her posters are not done yet.

Rusty said "listen I did not change his travel plans if you do not like it call the commandant and let him know"

Amber say " well the president is the commandants boss?"

Rusty say " yes"

Amber then wipes out her cell phone and calls information and asks for the number to the white house! Amber got the white house gift shop and she told the lady that she would like to leave a message for the president! So she did.

Thats my girl! I do not take peoples crap, and I go straight for the top! LOL I am so proud of her!

Oh by the way.... Kevin is still coming in on Wednesday!

feeling better

Well I am feeling so much better! The refelexologist really fixed me up! I am still in a little bit of pain, but I was told that it would go away over this week. Last night I slept for 6 hours! I was so happy. I can now bend, and I can even put my shoes on!

I must say that my hubby has been awesome through this whole thing. The other day he just crawled into bed next to me and held me. I so needed that. I needed him to touch me. When he touches me it shows me that he loves me.

So tonight I am going to make a shepherd pie. It is just my little way of saying thank you to them for taking of me.

There was so much drama here last night. Nikki was just so upset that SHE broke it off with her boyfriend. I just held her and let her cry it out. I told her to lean on me and that I would be her rock. What else do you say? Is there anything that you can say to fix this?

I just found out that our friend Kevin will be home on Wednesday and not on Friday! I am so jazzed. I can't wait to see him.

However this leaves me with some extra work to get done. I know how have to go get all of the stuff to make the welcome home posters, gather up the flags, go get our friends bus....... All before Wednesday! Oh Kevins parents will be Tuesday night, then Wednesday we go get Kevin and then Wednesday night we have to go to the airport and pick up Kevins sister and brother in law. I am going to be so busy on Wednesday! that is o.k. at least it will be a happy busy.

I am going to go slip into a tub and rest for a while. I do not want to curse my self by doing to much to fast.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

tires and boyfriends

It is early and I was woken up by pain shooting down my leg! I want this pain to stop.

Anyway, It did feel good to get out of the house yesterday. I had a nice trip to San Diego. Nikki went with me so we got to spend a lot of one on one time together.

So once we got to the airport our friend called us and asked us where we were. I told him that we were by the uso and asked him to start walking twords us. Our friend got so lost. So Nikki and I are looking at the sign on the door that says that all dogs must be crated. I just looked at Nikki and then looked at the dog and said " well lets go for it. Maybe no one will notice us walking through an air port with this large dog". So that is what we did. Not one person said anything to us! LOL However the dog was very happy to see his owner.

So we get home from the airport and Amber says that the ups driver wanted to deliver 4 huge tires to us, but that she refused them! I about fell over! one of our friends in Iraq sent the tires to us so we could store them for him! So now I have to call ups. I must say that the lady that took my call was so nice and she had the driver call me. We got the tires! Now I just have to get them out of the living room.

Ambers boyfriend Sam did a good job yesterday. Rusty was very pleased. I assumed everything went well since Rusty brought him back and did not leave him in no mans land!

Rusty paid Sam $50 to help him.But last night Sam walks up to Rusty and says here is $5. You over paid me! Rusty said well at least the boy is honest.

I had just gotten to sleep last night when Nikki called me in tears! ( she was at a friend house) Nikki and her boyfriend just broke up. I liked Nikki's boyfriend, but I saw to many differences in them. I know she will be o.k., but the pain of losing your first love is never easy. I did offer to go pick her up, but she said no that she wanted to stay at her friends house.

I am going to try to get the house cleaned up today. I have my sewing stuff all over the table and that all needs to be put away. I will just have to finish the quilts later. We have company coming in on Monday, so I want to get this house cleaned up before everyone descends on us.

I am getting very excited that our friend Kevin will be home soon. His parents are the ones coming in on Monday. I just can't believe that it has been a year since he left for Iraq. Next Friday I will be able to give him a hug and tell him that I love him.

Yesterday was the first day that I had actually gotten dressed since I got sick with the flu. My jeans just hung off of me! These use to be the nice fitting jeans. I have lost almost 10 pounds in two weeks! I think I actually look almost to skinny. I am sure that the weight will come back.

Since I am up and it seems that the pain pills are starting to work I think I am going to get busy and get some house work done.

No boy is worth crying over and the one who is won't make you cry!

Friday, January 26, 2007

got to go!

Oh how I wish my car looked this good. I drive an early 90's chevy lumina. That's right I drive the grocery getter!

Anyway, I have to go to San Diego today to pick up a friend. Oh I hope my back and hip do not hurt to bad!

Rusty told the girls that I was not to get out of bed yesterday so I spent yesterday in bed. It sucked. we have 400 channels and I could not find anything to watch.

I did get some sleep during the day and I slept most of the night. However I woke in pain and had to take more pain medicine. I just want this pain to go away!

I found out yesterday that our "house guest" got orders and he will be leaving for a ship in middle east. So I guess I won't have to worry about him for a while. Darn. LOL

Rusty had to drive out near Palm Springs today. The marines out there needed an ass load of gear, so he is delivering it today. Ambers boyfriend Sam went with Rusty, so that should be interesting. Rusty and Sam alone together! On a good note, Rusty is taking the rest of the day off once he is done with the delivery. I so wanted him around yesterday.

I need to go get into a shower and get ready to go. Then once I am home it is back to bed

Thursday, January 25, 2007

so sore

That's it I give up! I am going to go see the holistic healer. When I was working as a day laborer I hurt my back several times. And now my hip is killing me. My husbands pain meds are not working any more. I just cried this morning because I could not move.

I give in. My body is in need of TLC and I must give in. For those of you who don't know I am a little strange.... o.k. a lot strange. I do not go to doctors I believe that the body can be healed in other ways. * just so people don't think I am way out there. I would never take hubby to a healer when he is having a heart attack!*

Anyway the lady that I am going to go see does Reflexology, acupressure and uses magnets. She has worked wonders before.

I am going to do a little as possible today. I got most of the quilt put together, but if I got on the floor to pin it, I don't think I would get off the floor! LOL so no working on the quilt today.

Nikki's boyfriend asked Rusty if he could take Nikki to the winter formal. So it looks like we will be dress shopping soon. We will hit some of our favorite thrift stores and see what they have. Amber was asked to the prom by her boyfriend, but since the boyfriend has not asked Rusty about it I won't start shopping for that dress yet.

Ryan use to play on a special needs baseball team and the baseball coach for that team called me yesterday and asked if I was going to put Ryan back in. Rusty and I both said no. Because Ryan is high functioning and most of the children on the team are not, well it just is not a challenge for him. The running club is a challenge for him and we like him being challenged!

There is a place here in town that offers belly dancing lessons. So I think once I get my back and hip fixed I am going to go sign up for classes. I think it sounds like fun, and it something that I have never done before, so that is a plus for me. LOL I just love trying new things.

o.k. well I am going to sink into a nice hot tub. The pain meds are starting to hit, so I can move a little bit more. I just need to remember not to do to much.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

cold morning

Brr it is cold this morning. According to the news it is suppose to warm up. I hope so because I wanted to give the dogs a bath. They are all getting stinky.

So last night Rusty and I are laying in bed and we are watching some t.v. Then a commercial comes on. I rolled over and looked at him and said "lets get one of those kiddie pools and fill it with jello and have sex in it." He just looked at me like a dog looks at a high pitched sound and said " no, that does not even sound like fun" Bummer for me.

Ryan has running club today and he is really liking this whole running thing. He said that there is another child from his class in running club. I am so happy that he is having a good time.

Rusty is off work today since he has a doctors appointment today. It will be nice to actually have dinner with him. So I am going to make him his favorite dish.

My goal for today is to work on my quilt. I ran out of the material that I bought, so I had to go digging through all of my stashes of material. I think I have found enough to finish the back. The back of the quilt will be pieced to get her, but that is o.k.

Brrr I am still cold!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

smells good

I am sitting here eating milk and cookies, just enjoying the smell of my house! Today I went through and did a really good cleaning on it, then I opened all of the windows so that we could get some fresh air inhere, then I went back and used a disinfectant on everything! MMMMMM the house smells so clean.

Last night I chatted with my mom via IM. I still have not spoken to her since she told me about her will. I guess she is doing fine, and she said that she was going down to sign the will today.  I am still not ready to speak to her on the phone.

On to a topic filled with sunshine! My girlfriend sent me this and I thought it was kinda cool. Must admit that it was right on for me. I picked number 6.

If all of the desserts listed below were sitting in front of you, which
would you choose (Sorry, you
can only pick one!) Trust me...this is very accurate.  Pick your dessert,
then look to see what psychiatrists
think about you. After taking this dessert personality test, send this
e-mail on to others, but when you do, be sure to put your choice of dessert
in  the subject box above.

and dont want be any fun if you do Here are your choices:

1. Angel Food Cake

2. Brownies

3. Lemon Meringue

4. Vanilla cake with Chocolate Icing

5. Strawberry Short Cake

6. Chocolate on Chocolate

7. Ice Cream

8. Carrot Cake

No, you can't change your mind once you scroll down, so think carefully what
your choice will be...............

OK - Now that you've made your choice this is what research says about

     1. ANGEL FOOD CAKE -- Sweet, loving, cuddly. You love all warm and
fuzzy items. A little nutty at times.  Sometimes you need an ice cream cone
at the end of the day. Others perceive you as being childlike and immature
at times.

    2. BROWNIES -- You are adventurous, love new ideas, are a champion of
underdogs and a slayer of dragons.  When tempers flare up you whip out your
saber.  You are always the oddball with a unique sense of humour and
direction. You tend to be very loyal.

    3. LEMON MERINGUE -- Smooth, sexy, & articulate with your hands, you are
an excellent after-dinner speaker and a good teacher.  But don 't try to
walk and chew gum at the same time. A bit of a diva at times, but you have
many friends.

    4. VANILLA CAKE WITH CHOCOLATE ICING -- Fun-loving, sassy, humorous, not
very grounded in life; very indecisive and lack motivation. Everyone enjoys
being around you, but you are a practical joker. Others should be cautious
in making you mad. However, you are a friend for life.

     5. STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE -- Romantic, warm, loving.  You care about
other people, can be counted on in a pinch and expect the same in return.
Intuitively keen.  Can be very emotional.

    6. CHOCOLATE ON CHOCOLATE -- Sexy; always ready to give and receive.
Very creative, adventurous, ambitious, and passionate. You can appear to
have a cold exterior but are warm on the inside. Not afraid to take chances.
Will not settle for anything average in life. Love to laugh

    7. ICE CREAM -- You like sports, whether it be baseball, football,
basketball, or soccer. If you could, you would like to participate, but you
enjoy watching sports. You don't like to give up the  remote control You
tend to be self-centered and high maintenance.

    8. CARROT CAKE -- You are a very fun loving person, who likes to laugh.
You are fun to be with.  People like to hang out with you. You are a very
warm hearted person and a little quirky at times. You have many loyal

I think that I am going to go chill out for a while. Rusty will be working late so tonight for dinner I am going to just make soup and sandwiches for the children and I.

Monday, January 22, 2007

am I strange?

So last night Nikki and I are talking about her trip. She said that missions trip leader will stop by to sign the papers and that she had made some of her phone calls to get some support.

Then she stopped and finally said that she was upset because she know a guy that wants to go on the trip but his mother will not even discuss it. She said that it is dangerous and that she would not send her child into harms way and that was that.

Nikki asked me why I say yes to them every time they want to travel. I had to think about it for a moment. Why do I let my children just pack up and leave?

I finally said "Well there are a few reasons. One is that I think you should travel and see the world when the opportunity presents its self. And two because I know that are days are numbered and when our time is done it is done. Weather we are sitting a rocking chair or seeing the great wall of China"

Does that make me strange? Does that make me a bad mom because I do not worry when my children go off into the great unknown. Or does that make me a good mom for allowing my children to take advantage of every opportunity?

Today I have to go DMV and get a temp sticker for the car since we forgot that it had to be smogged and we know that it won't pass smog anyway! I have a gift card for a store out near the dmv, so I may do some shopping while I am out there.

Two of our friends will be home soon and I am getting so excited! I talked to one of their moms last night and we are making all the plans for the home coming. We have to try to buy enough food to feed 12 people and we have to do it on a budget! LOL Our house is going to be full, but at least it will be filled with people that I want to see. I so cannot wait to hug our friends and tell them thank you.

Ryan starts running club today and I hope that he likes it. I think it will be good for him to have something else to do. I guess we will see when I pick him up.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

what a night

I spent last night just held up in our room. It turns out that the house guest invited another person up! We are not motel 6! Then to top it all off I heard this chick say where am I suppose to sleep? If I sleep on the floor I wont be able to walk in the morning!

This morning I got up an just tried really hard to act like no o ne was here. I refused to clean up after anyone and now I am just leaving it for someone else to clean.

I have started on my quilt. It is going to be one of those rag quilts where all of the seams show. I know that it will turn out so cute. I can't wait to have it done so that I can sleep with it.

I am not going to be doing much today. My hip is really hurting me, and I know that I really need to go see the healer about it. So for now I am going to chill and work on my quilt.

Sorry for not commenting, but I am trying to make myself disappear when other people are around. All I wanted was to spend just one night with my husband and the children. I did not want to do anything I just wanted to be with them without other people here. Is that to much to ask?

Saturday, January 20, 2007

nikki can sell

I am so proud of Nikki. She made $205! Three cheers for Nikki. I must say that I am very proud of her.

So here is a short but funny list of items that Nikki sold.

1. 3 flippers

2. two broken mirrors

3. a t.v. from the 50's that did not work

4. 2 cameras from the 50's

5. an iron with a torn up cord.

I am telling you this child can sell anything! LOL

Now that the yard sale is over we are going to take the left overs down to the good will.

I did finish my puzzle today, so now I can start on some quilts! I can finally get busy with dragonfly material.

Oh joy the house guest from hell just walked in. Maybe I can hide from him? oh well

Back to my life... Tonight Rusty and I have nothing planned. We are going to order pizza and watch some t.v. I just love hanging out with hubby.

Well it is time for me to go hide. I will have to chat with everyone later.


Friday, January 19, 2007

another busy day

Today was the first day of Nikki's garage sale and she made $94! I was very surprised that she actually got up and took care of everything. I thought that I would have to give her a little push, but she did good. we are still going to have it tomorrow and then anything that does not sell is going straight to the good will. I think we will have another yard sale in a month and this will give her more money to go for her trip.

I did manage to get some cleaning done in between helping out, but I really have not done anything, and yet I am so tired. Maybe I am tired because I had sex last night. We have done that in a while so maybe that is it? hmmm.... oh when we were almost done with sex we noticed that we had moved so much that we were about to fall head first in a dresser. We both just laughed.

Rusty has been working late all week so I am going to make him a special meal tonight. Maybe that will perk him up some. I don't think I am feeding anyone else or am I? Amber has to work, Nikki and her boyfriend are going to see a movie..... do I have to feed them or can popcorn count as a meal? Ryan will eat whatever. Yep that about covers it. I am really only cooking for Rusty tonight.

I really should be moving on. I have laundry to finish, Rusty's dinner to cook, and if I sit here to much longer I will fall a sleep. I will be in bed early tonight!

Thursday, January 18, 2007

can you believe

I just these pictures.

Anyway, I have to make a run down to base today. Our friends that moved away left something at their old place and they asked me to get it for them. here is the problem. First of all Sonja left her uniform hanging in the closet! LOL She was trying to get the children settled and taking care of a child with a broken arm..... she just forgot to grab her uniforms. problem number two is, they did not leave me a key to the place. Usually they will give me a key or leave one. So now I have to break into their place. They told me all the ways to break in. I guess it is good that I do know how to break into places!

I am a vegan. I do not hide that fact. While my mom was here she pointed out to me that I was not getting enough protein. She is right. Not only do I not eat meat, but I also do not like beans. So I went on the hunt for some soy protein powder, and I finally found some that I am happy with. So I am sitting here drinking some o.j. with protein powder. Growing up my mom always kept an eye on my eating, and she would do whatever to get me to some protein. I never woke up and said I am going to be a vegan. I have never liked meat or beans. Does that make me strange?

I did get my nails done and they look so nice. Rusty really liked them when I rolled over this morning and started scratching his back with them. Rusty just snuggled down into his blanket and acted like the alarm was not going off.

I am not a reader. I do not like to read and I do not know if I would even have the time to read. However Rusty was reading this book and he would read it to me. It is call dumbing down our children. If you have a child in school or even a grandchild in school you should read this book. It is a real eye opener on how our school system is.

Please do not get me wrong. I am sure that there are some really good teachers out there. I do not blame just the teacher, I blame the whole system. My mom hit the nail on the head when she said "We started school at an older age, we were not expected to know our numbers or are abc's, that is what the teachers taught us. We had a shorter school year, and harder classes and our generation is doing just fine."

Anyway, I need to get on the road. I am going to go take some blankets to the shelter on base and then I think I am going to swing in and take hubby to lunch today. He will not be expecting that!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

what to do

I have a lot that I should be doing today, But I just cannot find the motivation to do any of it. So I think I will just here and drink another cup of coffee.

Yesterday Nikki and I got out into the garage and started pricing the big items for the yard sale. I really hope that her yard sale does well, so that she will get a little taste of success, and really get out there and start fund raising. What I have not told Nikki is that someone we know is going to give her close to $1000 for the trip! That means she only needs to raise about $800 more. I know that she can do it!

I just so dred getting up and setting up for a yard sale when it has been so cold first thing in the mornings. BRRRR......

Ryans teacher and I are about to bump heads. I keep insisting that Ryan should memorize all of his basic math facts and she says that he does not need to do that " because he can use tally marks to figure everything out". So last night Ryan brings home math with regrouping and he cannot figure it out because he can't remember what tally marks he made for what problem. However if I just look at him and say Ryan what is 10 + 4 he can tell me. Then I will ask him then what is up with all of these marks? he will say well that is what my teacher wants me to do.

Maybe I am to old. I am all of 36, but when I went to school all of those math facts were drilled into our heads. Then again I also had a teacher that would walk up and brain dust and tell us to get back to work. Maybe it is another sign of the times.

I was just looking through some of the papers that Ryan brought home and I am trying to get a hold of the lady in charge of the running club at Ryans school. O.K. I just got a hold of the lady who is in charge of the running club. I am going to let Ryan have a go at running track. I think he will really enjoy it!

I so wish that there was more for special ed children to do. We use to have a baseball league for special ed children, but that fizzled out. So I am hoping that running track will give him something else to do and a way to be like other children. I guess all we can do is wait and see.

Well now I am in a good mood. I am so hopeful that this will work out for Ryan. I so want him to find something that he enjoys and something that he is good at.

Well, I guess I better get into a shower and start my day. Oh Rusty said that I could go get my nails done, so I am thinking about getting them done today. we will see.....

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

up and moving

I did not sleep at all last night! My hip and leg were killing me and I guess when you do nothing all day you have no reason to sleep.

So I drug my but out of bed and got busy.

Lets see, I got some laundry in the washer and dryer. ( bless Amber for trying to keep up with it) Someone gave us a bunch of left over chicken and turkey, so I am boiling that down, so I can pull it off the bones. ( the smell of food id still making me sick!)

We have been waiting for a phone call from some of our friends and it finally came in yesterday! We can start to prepare for the return of some of our friends! I just wanted to do the happy dance. Kevin and ross have been gone for a year and now they will be coming home. Note to self. Must get new American flag, new marine Corps flag,and must make welcome home banners.

Well I am going to go take some pain medicine and go soak in the tub. Maybe that will help my hip feel better. Then I need to suck everything up and start taking care of my family.

Thanks to everyone for your nice comments. I know that Rusty is sad that he may have lost a friend, but I am glad that I am not bottling it up any more.

Monday, January 15, 2007

crazy weekend

So Saturday night Rusty and I went out to dinner and the house guest from hell tagged along.

Right in front of someone I just met he says can you believe that she is married to this skinny fucker?

Then our dinner came and none of it looked good. So I ate the bread and passed one the rest of the food. Then he says what wrong you wont eat chicken now?

Then he leaves and Rusty and I hang out for a while. When we get home Ryan says to me "Amber broke your globe". So I sent Ryan to bed since it was past his bed time and I started cleaning up the broken class.

By now my blood is boiling. Here I am sweeping up glass and I have people telling me to leave it so that Amber can clean it up. I just continued to sweep up glass.

Then I lost it. I screamed " here let me take out the trash since no one else can see that it is over flowing. Here let fold the blankets that you threw on the floors two days ago. Oh here let me get your dirty dishes off the floor"

Then Amber walks in. House guest says Amber I want to talk to you. I told Amber to stop right where she was and to go to her bedroom and do not come out until morning.

House guest packed his stuff and left. Rusty is just in shock.

I feel really bad because house guest and Rusty have been friends for ever. We just went to bed without speaking.

Sunday morning at 1a.m. I start pucking up my gutts and wetting myself. I screamed for Rusty and he got me a wash cloth and helped me back to bed. I was up and down all night long. Sunday just sucked for me.

Rusty went to the store and got me some gatoraid, 7 up and jello. Funny thing is jello maybe green going down but it is also green coming up!

I was just begging for someone to make me stop throwing up.

I feel much better today, but I was ordered to stay in bed. I am glad that the children were off of school, so at least the girls were there to help me.

This morning before Rusty left for work we talk about the house guest from hell.

I told Rusty that I would call him, but that I wanted a few questions answered.

1. would he leave one of his only family members in harms way? That is what he did when he left broken glass all over the floor for our son or one of our pets to step on.

2. does he disrespect to his own father? that is what he is to us when he leaves his dishes all over the place and expects me to clean them up.

3. if he runs us down when we are in front of him, then what is he saying when we are not around?

I did call house guest, but he did not answer, so the ball is in his court.

This morning Rusty told the children in no uncertain terms that the house better be clean when he got home and that I was to stay in bed and rest all day.

The children did a great job and keeping the house up, but now I should be sleeping, but I cant. I could not believe how hard it was to sit on my lazy ass and do nothing!

I have a lot of stuff planned for tomorrow. I need to go to the store, and then to the dairy. I also need to start sorting out the garage.

We have been asking people for their yard sale left overs and we are going to hold our own garage sale to help Nikki raise money for her missions trip. I am hoping to make around $150 - $200. But then again anything that we make is total profit.

I will try to get back to reading journals in the morning.

Oh one more thing. Ryan was complaining because tomorrow he has to write something. Nikki says here let me help you get started " Hi my name is Billy. I am holding a knife. I am running tword you" only my childen! LOL



Friday, January 12, 2007

good question

Before I get to the question that I was asked yesterday I have to tell about my great finds!

I ended up going to wal crap yesterday and I got some awesome material! I was so excited that I found some dragon fly material. Not just one type of material, but two different types! I had to buy it to make myself some quilts. I know, I know I swore I was going to use up the old material before I started buying new stuff, but I just could not help my self.

Nikki is so excited because she found out some awesome news yesterday. Nikki will be able to go back to Nicaragua this year. She also found out that they are going to try to get a trip to Japan for next year. Nikki has want to get to Japan for such a long time. Also next year both of the girls will be heading to Peru with a medical team! They won't be doing any medical stuff, but they will be painting and stocking shelves, and playing with the children. Three cheers for Nikki!

I also found a juicer, but oranges were $1.50 a pound! So I still have not gotten my fresh squeezed o.j. The homemade mac and cheese was gross, so I am still on the hunt for a good homemade mac and cheese.

I got an e mail yesterday asking me how I felt out the war and about the Presidents planes to increase our numbers in the middle east. I had to take some time to really think about this and here it goes.

Here is what I KNOW:

1. this is still a volunteer service

2. going to war is part of being in the military

3. God HAS blessed America

4. I know that our troops are doing the best they can with what they have.

5. I know that our troops are just following orders

6. I know that we are part of the most powerful nation, and with that come responsibility.

7. I know that without our men and women in uniform we would not live in a free country today.

Here is what I feel:

1. I feel in my heart that I want everyone to come home.

2. I do not want to get any more calls from our friends saying that they are cold and are sleeping in trucks.

3. I do not want to hear about our friends being shot at. Thank God for body armor

4. I feel that we should have gone into Iraq with the greatest number of troops and just kicked the shit out of them and then allowed the troops to come home.

5. I feel that we should let the people of the middle east just fight it out. There has never been peace in the middle east and I don't think that there ever will be.

6. I feel that we are not the worlds band aid.

So as a former military wife and now the wife of a veteran, I am still confuse. I want to kick the shit out of war protesters, but I know that my husband fought for their freedom of speech. I know that one day soon, I will hold all of our friends and that until they come home I will continue to support them.

War is something that  young men do and that old men talk about.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

brrrr its cold

I am just so cold! For some reason I cannot warm up at all. Maybe I should go start a fire, but then again the fire place is not in the same room I am. BRRRR

My husband does collect disability from the veterans administration and until about 4 months ago he was classified as 100% disabled. Then they reviewed his case and knocked him down to 90% which cut his disablity check by 50%! The veterans administration has a lot of issues. One of them being that it seems everyone wants to cut their spending. Which a real shame since we are now being flooded with disabled veterans and they are younger then ever. O.K. I will get off my soap box now.

I dug out this cookbook that has a lot of really old recipes and I found one for mac and cheese. I am going to give it a try tonight. I also a recipe for homemade ice cream that does not require any fancy equipment. I will have to give it a try.

I need to go to wal crap and get some stuff but I am just to cold to leave the house! I have been craving fresh orange juice, so I think I am going to go see how much a juicer is. Man fresh o.j. sounds good right now.

I really have nothing planned for today. I am thinking that I should just chill. Maybe work on a puzzle or just curl up and do some knitting. The house is so still and I love it. No one is calling or stopping by, so I can stay locked up in here! I am such a house rat most days.

Amber asked me for advice last night! I was so shocked. One of Ambers friend is being a "mean girl". This chick is 16 and is dating a 21 year old, but was leading another guy on and is now talking shit about Amber because Amber will not help her get either guy back! I told Amber that it would be best to just left this friendship go, and that this chick does not seem like such a good friend. Teenage drama.

I have not spoken to my mother since she left here and I have been thinking about that a lot lately. I am not sure what to say to her, so I have not called. I do not want to say something really mean just because I am still pissed off. I guess I should wait to call her then or wait and see if she ever calls me.

The department of Justice came into Rustys work yesterday and busted him for NOT having a weapon on him! LOL We thought that he only had to wear a weapon when he was transporting weapon and ammo. I guess we were wrong. So today he had to load up and leave the house looking like the lone ranger. I swear this is the perfect job for him!

Oh well, I am going to go do something productive today, I am just not sure what! LOL

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

health and PTSD

The marine corps times had an article on PTSD and how it is connected to health problem.

Well it seems that PTSD can cause strain on the heart which can lead to heart attacks. Really?! Does that mean Rusty's benefits go up since they have know about the connection? The article also said that depression and physical pain go hand in hand with PTSD.

I just wanted to share that! LOL I guess now we need to go back to the veterans administration and get Rusty's rating raised.


up late

Well the chili is in the crock pot and the bread is in the oven. So I think I have a few minutes before something else happens.

I did not get to bed until about 1 a.m. and then I got up around 6 so I am a little cranky right now.

I was up so late because I was waiting for our friends to drop off their dog. I so wanted to sleep but instead I decided to get busy and get some work done. So about midnight last I cleaned both of the toilets, wash the outside of our front window and did laundry. Oh here is a tip for everyone. When you wash your windows in the middle of the night just spray the heck out of them and wipe them until you think they are clean. I was shocked that they actually looked good this morning.

I still need to go take a picture of these shoes that Amber had to have. However yesterday she came home carrying her shoes! She said by fourth period her feet were killing her! Hmmm...... that was an I told you so moment! But we all know that you can't tell teenagers anything because they already know everything.

Do you wanna hear something freaky? Remember when we bought food for the boy scout troop? Well it turns out that Sam (Ambers boyfriend) was one of the boy scouts! Sam said that when they took the food to the people he was shock how happy they were just to have food. He said the people they helped did even have a tree, much less food. I am glad that Amber is dating someone who can see past himself, and help others.

I hope that Rusty is having a good day at work. This morning we were both snapping at each other. I got to bed late and he did not sleep good, so we were both cranky. Maybe having his favorite for dinner will cheer him up.

I am on the hunt for a really easy homemade baked mac and cheese dish. If you have one will you please send it to me or if you find one will you send me the link. I love baked mac and cheese, but I would like to try to make it.

The bread is smelling good so I better go check on it.

Note to self: after bread is done go take a nap so that you won't be grouchy when the children come home.

Tuesday, January 9, 2007

here are my answers

1. Can you cook? yes

2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator? freak out

3. What talent do you wish you had? I wish I could paint

4. Favorite place? the ocean

5. Favorite vegetable? green peper

6. What was the last book you read? does the book have to have words? I have not read an adult book in so long!

7. Are you Dirty or Clean? clean

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? just my ears

9. Worst Habit? smoking

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of LiveJournal? no

2. What's your philosophy on life? I believe in karma

3. Negative or Optimistic? optimistic

4. What was your dream growing up? joining the army

5. Worst thing to ever happen to you? let a man beat me

6. Would you give me money or a slap in the face? money

7. Tell me one weird fact about you: I hate to show my legs

8. Would you have my back or kick me when I'm down? ill keep your back

9. Do you Trust me? i guess

10. Have you ever kept anything from me? I do not think

11. What do you think of me as a Person? I have not known you that long

12. Do you think I'm sane or insane? well lyn we are married to the military!

13. Would you cry for me if I died? yep

14. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? I love trouble so I would be your partner

15. If you could change anything about me, would you? hmmmm your location?

16. How do you fall asleep? on my side

17. Would you come over to yell at me or just call? neither. I would stay up and plot my revenge

18. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up? heck yes..... oh that is if I was single

19. If I only had one day to live would you be honest or lie? honist

20. A million bucks.. what would you do with it? I would dance naked in the streets...that is from a song. I would have my dream pool put in

21. What is your worst fear? my husband dying

22. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? quilt or work on puzzles

23. How many times did you curse at me while filling out this thing? not once yet

24. Can you sing or dance? only is I am super drunk and then I amjust making a fool out of myself

25. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest....

26. Will you repost this so I can fill it out? yep

done for now

When I was reading everyone journals this morning I noticed a theme. We were all cleaning! I did no cleaning this weekend or yesterday. I did ask the children put away all of their stuff, but that request fell on deaf ears.

So I got up this morning and just started cleaning. O.K. it was not really cleaning. I just threw everything away. I figured it could not have been that important to them if they could not bother to put their stuff away.

Well our friends got stuck here another day. One of their sons fell and broke bone of the bones in his arm! So I am not sure when they are leaving. I will talk to them tonight and see if they need any help doing some stuff so they can get on the road.

Amber and her boyfriend are so crazy! Amber wanted these shoes, so she called around until she found a store that had them. Then she talked her boyfriend into taking her to get the shoes. They drove for two hours just for a pair of shoes! I think they are both crazy, and the shoes are so not that pretty. They look like something my grandmother wore back in the depression!

I found some old John Maxwell c.d's today. I need to listen to them again. He is such a good speaker and I really enjoy his self help stuff. When I listen to him, I find that there are so many areas of my life that I can improve on. Such as being nicer, how to make new friends, and how to handle negative people.

Tomorrow I am going to go do some work in the yard. I need to clean the fire pit, and sweep the walk. It is suppose to be nice tomorrow, so I am thinking the fresh air will do me some good. I also have a few errands to run. But today I am staying locked up in the house with the door closed. I just feel like being alone. I even turned the ringer off on the home phone! LOL I am such a house rat some days.

I am going to go cook dinner. Then all everyone has to do is heat it up when they are hungry. I have discovered that if I cook dinner during the day, it frees up my evenings and gives me more time to spend with the children.

Tonight menu:

fried cube steak, raw vegi's and some tater tots. Nothing fancy, but it works! LOL