a day of walking

Today was filled with walking! but hats o.k. It was not to hot today so Rusty and I went up to the outlet mall and walked around. I am glad that he is able to walk a little bit more everyday.

Then for some reason tonight I was just full of energy, so I went on my normal 2 mile walk, but I still had energy so I kept walking. I cant wait for the new high school to open because then I can walk on the track and do some stairs.

So one of our friends might be coming back here for school. Thats cool, I love Tony, except he wants to see me in my birthday suit. Now I dont see what the big deal is. He saw me wear that suit swimming last year! But hey, since I missed his birthday I am going to ask him if he would like to watch me take a shower. When I told Rusty this he just laughed and said go for it! Hey if he wants to see my body then bring it on. I think it looks good for all I put it through!

I talked to my boss yesterday and told him that I need to work. I explained everything that went on the last few weeks, so as soon as work picks up he will let me know and he said that he would give me all of the hours that I wanted. I have asked for extra hours in the past but he would ask me not to take them because the other girls really NEEDED the money. Now I really need the money, so he is going to give me all the hours I want. The best part is,,,,,,,cash!

As for the post on last entry. Hazel could have gone to the meeting where my formal complaint was read. I really did want her to know how bad she hurt me and how to just see the look on her face when the letter was read. But that chapter of my life is closed and I am moving on.

I would love to go sit on the beach, watch the sun go down and have a few drinks. I need to hire some good looking guy to take hois shirt off and wait on me all day. Then someone will have to drive me home! Yes I am a pig and yes I like to have eye candy. However the only eye candy that I am unwrapping and eating is Rusty.

Life is good and all of the walking has cought up with me. I must go crash.

Today I am thankful for the cool weather.

 

Hazel was a no show

Thats right, Hazel did not even show up today. So I just came home. I will not give my good energy to a place that has negative energy pouring out of it. So it is over. I am still sticking to my guns about not going there until she if dead or fired.

I am not sure what I am going to do today. I need to do the usuall, like clean, but that sounds so boring!

I guess boring can be good, so I am going to go sit outside and drink a cup of coffee and just enjoy some cooler weather.

the girls are back!

I am so happy that the girls are back from camp! The house just was not the same without them. I love the noise that they bring into the house.

In the morning I get to face Hazel. I am so calm about the whole thing. I am not sure if I will be that way in the morning, but for now I am not even worried about it.

Well Amber was not the one that got hurt at summer camp. This trip it was Nikki. She has this huge bruse on her tummy. I tried to figure out how it happened and I can come up with is water balloons and a sling shots. I think that is all the info that I need.

So my friend Ray says to me that he saw the perfect car for me today. It was a v.w. bus painted pink with yellow flowers and peace signs on it! He is right that is so me. Since Rusty is a chevy man I am stuck with a chevy. I am still trying to throw away all of the furniture so that I can get bean bag chairs. Rusty does not see the humor in this.

O.K. so maybe I am a throw back from the 60's but that is me. My hippie clothing, my hippy views on raising children, and my hippie views on the enviroment. Well... that is just me. I dont think people would like me if I was any other way.

Rusty is out with a friend tonight. I am glad that he went out. He needs to get out and be with his friends. I am just so glad that he is feeling better. Next week Rusty starts all of his treatments. I am hoping that they will lower his blood preasure med, so that he can do more things.

I was watching Oprah the other day and she said something that fits my life now. Our life is not over, it has just been altered. That is so true. Our life will never be the way it was before, but  we will have a life.

Today I heard Rusty complaining to one of his friends. He was complaining about the blood thinning drug that I allowed the doc. to give him. The drug is like drano for the body and it gets rid of blood clots. There is a 1% chance of bleeding into the brain with this drug. Well anyway Rusty was complaining because his eyes are still not all healed up and he is still not hearing good out of one ear. I let Rusty know that I was the one that who signed the paper for the doctor to give him this med. I was the one who took the chance, so if he wants to be mad at someone then he needs to be mad at me. If I was given the chance to do it all again I would. I will take no hearing and red eyes as long as he is still up right!

an o.k. day

Well nothing really happened today. Rusty was not feeling good so we hung out most of the day.

I have another entry for my book on spouses of heart attacks. I want to know why no one told me that sleeping would be hard. Since the day Rusty came home I have been having trouble getting to sleep. Everytime I am about to drift off to sleep an image of something bad pops into my head and wakes me up. I will either see Rusty screaing on the kitchen floor, or I will see the doctor hit him or whatever. There were so many scarry moments for me that week. Why doesent someone tell us how to get past it? I do fall asleep, but it take me forever! I wonder when this will stop.

Anyway there will be no more pitty party here. Today I am thankful for being able to spend some time watching a video with Rusty.

went to the o.c.! LOL

Today I went to San Juan. I just wanted to get away and do nothing. I wanted to talk to no one. I wanted to have time to think, destress and renew myself.

I walked around the shops and I found a great little shop that sell nothing but silver and turquoise jewerly. That is my favotite type of jewerly. One of these days I will be able to afford to walk in there and buy what I want.

I walked through this antique store that had a ton of Pyrex! With what that store store was charging.... well lets say that I could make a lot of money selling off my pyrex.

I ate lunch at this little coffee shop across the street from the mission. This place had one of my favorite treats....7 layer bar! If I ever made these bars at home I would be so fat. I would eat all of them and not share with anyone.

Then I drove down the coast and stopped at a beach. The beach sure was beautiful.

The ocean smelled so salty and good. There were no clouds in the sky and a very nice breeze was blowing. The blues and greens of the ocean were so bright. The ocean even sounded good. I love the sound that the waves makes when they hit the sand and the rocks. Truth be told I just love the ocean.

When I am at the ocean all of my negative thoughts disappear. The ocean is good music for my soul.

Rusty and I are so different when it comes to the ocean. I would be happy to live on the ocean and Rusty hates it. I love to swim, boat, and walk on the beach. Rusty hates all of these things. Dont get me wrong. Rusty will go to the beach with me, but he will not have a good time while we are there.

I guess that is one way in which Rusty and I are different. But that is o.k. because if we were exactly a like that would be no fun.

I saw a couple today taking a video of the ocean. So I asked the coupl if I could take a picture of them. I not only got to take a picture of them, but I also got some video of them in the ocean. It was the first time either of them had seen the ocean.

Tonight Rusty and I went to the store and got some lunch meat and just made sandwiches for dinner. It was nothing fancy but it was good to just be with Rusty. I am now more calm and I am ready to take on the world again. I finally got my get away!

 

san juan    http://www.missionsjc.com/

 

7 layer bar   http://www.cooks.com/rec/doc/0,1910,155182-233204,00.html

my day is free

Well the girls are at camp, Ryan went to day camp and Rusty is off visiting a friend. So what should I do today? I SHOULD clan up the house, but that does not sound like much fun.

I would love to go the beach today and just sit and watch the surf. Maybe even watch the sunset. Or I could go tour one of the old missions. I need to do something and I need to get out of the house. But we are on a budget that is tight, so I am not sure.

I want to scream! I need to get away, but I have a feeling I will be stuck here all day doing nothing.

a good day

Last night a marine we know stopped me on my walk and asked me if I needed a ride. I told him, that I was walking for exercise. Sowe went back to the house so he could park his truck and he walked with me. I finally asked him what he was doing up at our place in the middle of the week. He started to cry and said " my grandmother had a stroke and dont expect her to pull of it. I just needed to get away".

So we finished our walk and then he hung out with us the rest of the night. It is nice to know that we are soft place to land for people when they need it. I dont know if we helped him, but we fed him dinner and just bull shited all night.

Today I realized that Ryan will be done with his second grade math book this week and starting  third grade math next week. That puts him only one year behind in math! We have made up so much ground. I guess we really have shown the system what a special needs child can do if the standard in raised.

I watched an awesome movie today called "Something the Lord made" It was about the doctors at Johns hopkins who figured out how to operate on the heart. It was an awesome movie and I recommend it to anyone.

Rusty did not go down and lay into Hazel. We talked about it, but he is going to do it the right way. Rusty is also getting very......well he is seeing all of the negitive people. We found out who our friend were. People that live near us could not pick up the phone and call, yet our friend in Italy called us everyday!

I need to go on my walk. I dont feel like, but I know that I have to do it. Walking is a good stress reliever for me and it is good for my heart. So I am off to walk and to get rid of the stresses of the day.

Today I am thankful for a day with my boys.