I have done nothing today

I have done nothing today. I so sick of being broke and I am so sick of nothing to do. All I did today was sit on the sofa and eat. I did wash up some of the dishes and took out the trash. Big fuchking deal.

I cant wait to go back to work just to get out of the house!

A lady I know stopped by and offered me a job today. She ownes a shop and a booth at a swap meet. So she asked me if I would want to sell some quilts there. She will buy everything and then pay me to make them. Well it sure beats the hell out of sitting on the sofa all day.

I guess I can say that I have done it all now. I have run a day care, work fast food, cleaned houses, made care parts, flipped pizza, etc.... and now I can add quilt maker to my list. I dont really like the idea because quilts were something that I would make for people that I knew and that I would give away to them. Now I am going to be sewing quilts for strangers. Oh well, the money will help out. And I have always done what I needed to do to get by. So I guess this will be no different.

Rusty is back to wanting nothing to do  with me. Enough said there.

Today I am thankful that it is almost over.

found child

Well the missing girl finally called her mom. It seem that one of her friends told their dad that this girl had no where to go. So... this grown man picks up a teenage girl and takes her back to his place, so this girl and his son can?????

I so dont get it. oh well

Today was a good day. I got my full work out in today and I even managed to make a really good meal for a change. It was not to hot today so Rusty was able to grill, Which he loves!!!

Rusty and I told the girls the other night that they needed to start getting up earlier and start getting ready to go back to school. Have they done that? no! So we are letting them sleep in until noon and stay up as late as they want. They are big girls, so thet will find out on monday that 5:30 comes early when you went to bed at midnight!

Ryan is doing awesome in his school work. I am so happy that he is learning more then the schools could have ever tought him.

A lady we know stopped by with a ton of food! Her mom works at a food bank so she stopped by and asked if we could use any of this stuff. She gave us so much food! I am very greatful. She actually gave us more then we could use so I gave some to my friend Julie. I dont mind sharing and giving when I have it to give.

Life is good. Today I am thankful that Rusty got to do something that he loved.....GRILL

M.I.A. child

One of the girls friends comes over here on Wednesday's to catch a ride to youth group, and then her mom picks her from here after youth group. So I though last night would be no different.

About 10 min. ago this girls mom showed up and said that she was here to pick up her daughter! So I go into Ambers room and no girl. I go into Nikki's room no girl. So I got the girls out of bed. Someone else picked this girl up and her mom has no idea where she is. The mom has tried calling her daughters cell phone but it is going to voice mail.

I know this moms pain. She is so scared and is wondering where her daughter is.

I have been told that I am to uptight because I wont let the children have video games, or cell phones or have a t.v. in their rooms. I now call parents and check to make sure someone is going to be there. I guess I am not so up tight.

Anyway, I feel for this mom.

some people are brain dead!

So we get this letter from one of the hospitals that Rusty was in telling us that we owe them $29 for his medical records. Now I dont have a problem with paying the money, but why dident they tell us this two weeks ago?! These records were suppose to be sent to the review board for Rusty's disability! So now not only do we have to drive these records to San Diego! If this brain deaf lady had told us this 2 weeks ago we would not be doing all of this running around no! I hate stupid people.

So I saw this really cool place ( I call it a house) and I told Rusty that I wanted him to buy it for me. So on our way back from the hospital (because of brain dead people) I told Rusty that I would show him this place. As soon as we turned on the street he said I am not going to buy you a church! How did he know that I wanted a church? Rusty about lost it. He cant believe that I want a church. Now think about this. Plenty of bedrooms, plenty of toilets, a kitchen, achoir loft so we can make our own music. It would be perfect. But nooooooo Rusty thinks that I am just wrong. I think he needs to step out of his box.

I am so glad that the girls go back to school on Monday! I so need a break.

Anyway, I started doing yoga and using the bowflex again. So now I am back. I walk two miles a day, train with weights and do a lot of stretching. It is nice to be bck to me.

So I am off. All of the children are gone, so I am going to go spend a few hours with Rusty. Just the two of us!

great day!

Today has been great! Rusty got up this moring and he hit the ground running. Rusty took Amber up to the new high school so that she could get her classes. And now he will be gone all evening do some business.

Amber made the dance team at school. I am very proud of her. Amber has tried out for the dance team before and has not made it. She has tried out for cheer and did not make it. So making the dance team this year will be a big boost for her! She does know that she has to keep her grades up and that if she misses just one class then it is all over. I cant have her pulling the shit she did last year, yet I hope this year will be a great year for her.

So Rusty took a picture of Amber when she found out that we joined the p.t.a.! Now she knows that we will be around the school to check up on her! LOL

The other picture is a picture is a picture of our youngest cat. His name is Gunner and he is not a year old yet. Rusty said that is name should be zippy the dumb ass. He really is dumb! LOL

I am off to enjoy an evening with my children!

Today I am thankful that Rusty is feeling so much better.

sex after a heart attack

Rusty is on a high dose of blood preasure meds. So sex is not something that we can count on. Last night however was great! I think that sex is better now because it is not something that I know I can have all the time. Sex after a heart attack is so much better.

I am off to start my day. We have to register Amber for school, and I am back into the swing of Ryans work. I am looking foward to an awesome day at home!

a semi good day

All in all today was good. Rusty and I argued about how I treat him. He says I treat him like a child, but I say that I am loving him and trying to keep him safe. I think we have just agreed to disagree.

Rusty did walk around the block today. I am so proud of him! I knew that it was going to be a long road back but at least we have started up the road.

For some reason I feel very stressed out today. I should not be and I hav even walked a lot today. Who knows.

Amber has to go register for school in the morning. I am really hoping for a better year this year. I am going to try to get more involved in the school, so that way she will know that I will be at the school. However I have also told her that if she fucks up like she did last year I will yank her out of school so fast that her head will spin. The sad thing is, is that I did it to her last year, so she knows that I will do it again.

Am I a mean mom because I want better for my daughter then ditching class, smoking and do lord only knows what else? I remember being a teenager and I did some really stupid stuff, but nothing like that. I want to know who forgot to give me the parenting handbook when Amber was born.

Anyway, I am off to get some sleep. Today I am thankful for all our children being home and being safe.