A very dear friend of mine once told me that I always land on my feet.
I was laying in bed last thinking about that. I have landed once again.
After all I have been through this year, I am still here.
The other night I was sitting outside and Rusty came out and sat with me.
I said "Well, we have helped both of the girls dreams come true this year. Amber got to go to Europe, and Nikki got to go back east and go to Nicaragua. We have made it through another summer."
It was with that statement that I opened a sore spot for Rusty.
Rusty said " I am sick of just making it. I am sick of our dreams be put on hold. I am sick of settling for third best. I am sick of having to have to juggle money and wonder if you are going to get sick."
I said " I am sorry that I got sick"
Rusty: " It's not that you got sick. It's that we had to take money that we were going to pay our bills with, so that you could get medicine. I am sick of you not having insurance. I am sick of just making it"
I guess I can see where Rusty is coming from. I know that we are "poor", but I do not consider us poor. I have been without health insurance for a while. I am use to going to the free clinic.
I am use to getting stuff second hand. I am use to juggling bills and money. I am use to waiting for stuff that we need. I am so use to it that I think it is normal.
I do not think we are poor.
I do however think we are rich. We have a place to live, we have food, we have three cars that run, we are able to help our children reach their dreams.
We are rich because we have friend that love us and friends that will do anything for us.
I guess it is all perspective.
Last week I spoke to my mom about the Egypt trip.....again.
My mom Rusty and I all agreed that no one is going to Egypt. It is not a good time for anyone.
Maybe this is what Rusty is talking about? Not being able to afford what we want?
Anyway, I am going to go get Ryan and I a passport and we are going to go visit my mom in Mexico. Every year my mom rents a condo in Mexico for a month, so I am going to take Ryan and go to Mexico for a week.
I am not sure what I am going to do about Ryan not being able to write his name. I am going to ask if a "X" can still be used as a signature. I would think that they would have something in place for people that can't write.
Today I am going to just do some stuff around here. I have to help Nikki unpack. There is a lot of stuff that we need to up for next year, so I will need to get that crated up.
Amber has to go up to the college and finish turning in all of her paper work. I am just waiting for the sticker shock on the price of her books.
Life and time march on. Right now I have to work on saving the money for air fare to Mexico. That will only be about $600.00. I am going to do some yard sale's and once school starts I will look for some odd jobs.
Then I will help the girls raise the money they need for there next big adventures.
Yes, I have been tossed around a lot this year, and yes my Egypt dream is put on hold, but I am still here and I am moving forward with whatever life hands me.
Life is good.