Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I have landed

A very dear friend of mine once told me that I always land on my feet.

I was laying in bed last thinking about that. I have landed once again.

After all I have been through this year, I am still here.

The other night I was sitting outside and Rusty came out and sat with me.

I said "Well, we have helped both of the girls dreams come true this year. Amber got to go to Europe, and Nikki got to go back east and go to Nicaragua. We have made it through another summer."

It was with that statement that I opened a sore spot for Rusty.

Rusty said " I am sick of just making it. I am sick of our dreams be put on hold. I am sick of settling for third best. I am sick of having to have to juggle money and wonder if you are going to get sick."

I said " I am sorry that I got sick"

Rusty: " It's not that you got sick. It's that we had to take money that we were going to pay our bills with, so that you could get medicine. I am sick of you not having insurance. I am sick of just making it"

I guess I can see where Rusty is coming from. I know that we are "poor", but I do not consider us poor. I have been without health insurance for a while. I am use to going to the free clinic.

I am use to getting stuff second hand. I am use to juggling bills and money. I am use to waiting for stuff that we need. I am so use to it that I think it is normal.

I do not think we are poor.

I do however think we are rich. We have a place to live, we have food, we have three cars that run, we are able to help our children reach their dreams.

We are rich because we have friend that love us and friends that will do anything for us.

I guess it is all perspective.

 Last week I spoke to my mom about the Egypt trip.....again.

My mom Rusty and I  all agreed that no one is going to Egypt. It is not a good time for anyone.

Maybe this is what Rusty is talking about? Not being able to afford what we want?

Anyway, I am going to go get Ryan and I a passport and we are going to go visit my mom in Mexico. Every year my mom rents a condo in Mexico for a month, so I am going to take Ryan and go to Mexico for a week.

I am not sure what I am going to do about Ryan not being able to write his name. I am going to ask if a "X" can still be used as a signature. I would think that they would have something in place for people that can't write.

Today I am going to just do some stuff around here. I have to help Nikki unpack. There is a lot of stuff that we need to up for next year, so I will need to get that crated up.

Amber has to go up to the college and finish turning in all of her paper work. I am just waiting for the sticker shock on the price of her books.

Life and time march on. Right now I have to work on saving the money for air fare to Mexico. That will only be about $600.00.  I am going to do some yard sale's and once school starts I will look for some odd jobs.

Then I will help the girls raise the money they need for there next big adventures.

Yes, I have been tossed around a lot this year, and yes my Egypt dream is put on hold, but I am still here and I am moving forward with whatever life hands me.

Life is good.



lisa41076 said...

Kelli, I love your outlook on life, you are totally awesome !!!!!!!!! Hugs Lisa

oquinn2004 said...

With your positive attitude anything is possible!!!  Yes we all put our personal dreams on hold for the sake of our children but never stop believing!!!!  


glensfork4 said...

That sounds like a conversation at my house....yes our money is wound tighter than I would like, but we have the necessities, we have a roof over our head, food in our bellies, electric, water, phone/'s not that bad and we could be worse off (and have a couple times).

I (we) are poor - but we are making it....Can I go off somewhere? no...maybe one of these days......but in the meantime, I (we) will keep going on doing what we can....

Big HUGS...


lifes2odd said...

I agree with you, life IS good! We don't have much either, always struggling to make ends meet, etc., but we have each other, we're all healthy for the most part, we have a roof over our heads and food on the table - we have the things that really matter in life as far as I'm concerned. My husband on the other hand always talks like Rusty, he's always complaining about how he's sick of just getting by, never having the things we want, etc. I guess it really is all perspective.

lv2trnscrb said...

and God is good all the time

He's been with you, walking with you every step of the way; you have a great outlook on life, Kelli!!

be prepared for sticker shock for college books; go used if you can

love is so much more better than having money; if you have to chose between one or the other, love and family is the way to go

and you have great kids; every single one of them


deshelestraci said...

I love your attitude.  Some would whine and fuss.  We are so rich in blessings!  Mexico sounds good to me!

hugsdoodlewacky said...

(((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU)))))))))))))))))))))))))))I also agree with you,you have a good outlook on life,I wish I had it like that.You are a good Mom and a wife.You know what you are doing.You will get to go to Egypt one day.Have a nice day.

plieck30 said...

You do always land on your feet. Someday it will be your turn. Hope you and Ryan have fun in Mexico. Paula

helmswondermom said...

You're so right about it being a matter of perspective.  I think you are rich, too.  And think about all the things you listed, PLUS you have a daughter entering college, AND your girls have got to do a lot of traveling that girls their age don't usually get to do.  But I can understand what Rusty is saying too, and there have been times when Thomas and I have felt the same way; especially Thomas because he works so very hard.  So let me say this to you and to Rusty: There are so many people out there who have had to put their dreams on hold, who don't have health insurance, who struggle from paycheck to paycheck, who have had to start over in one way or another, but who don't have all that you guys have, and who don't have the attitude that you have.  So I think the "rich" outweighs the "poor".  And you are probably the biggest asset Rusty has -- and I bet he'd agree with me!

lsfp1960 said...

I agree with you...there are people who live on the street eating out of garbage cans....all of us are rich compared to those dear souls...anyone who readys this...has a home, electricity and a computer for Pete's sake!  Much more than those on the street have.  And we have our families and friends.  Some of the wealthiest people in the world are the most miserable.  Because they can't be sure if their friends are genuine or just there because of the money.  We are rich !!!    Be sure and read the rules about getting Ryan a Passport.  I thonk both parents have to sign if the child is underage.  But you may already know that..getting Passports for the girls.  I think that would be good for the 2 of you to take a little trip south. Linda in Washington state  

springangel235 said...

The trip to Mexico sounds lovely...hope it all works out...hugs and love,

nelishianatl said...

And that attitude is what makes you all a success.  And Rich.  In your hearts, you truly care about each other.

Many who have everything would love to have what you have in that way.

I'm glad you have that.


nellieenglsh said...

Depends on what you deem as rich.  YOur rich in the things that matter family, friends and hopefully mentally.  Being third best isn't all that bad.  Its all about prespective.

I doubt an X will do.

lurkynat said...

wow Kelli! That trip to Mexico sounds wonderful!
I hope you have an awesome adventure with your Mom!
I love your "can do" attitude towards whatever life throws your way!
you are great!

sunnyside46 said...

there is a song by Dolly Parton
Coat of Many Colors
there ils a line in ti that says
"One iis only poor if they chose to be"
they shut off my water today
but i'm not poor
and I have a crescent wrench to turn it back on!