Monday, January 28, 2008

wheres the hot water?

So here is sit wrapped in a bath towel and in Rusty's rode. I am freezing. I swear if we ever build a house our bathroom is going to have its own hot water heater! So now I am waiting for some hot water.

Ryan's IEP meeting was such a joke today. The computers would not let anyone in, so we did not actually have the meeting. OP is going to come evaluate Ryan and I am still pushing for services for him. On a good note Ryan is now reading at a third grade level as long as it is not a history or science book. All other subjects are still in the second grade range.

Today has been a very busy day. I had to do just a lot of the same old boring stuff. I did however make a pot of chili and some home made bread. There were no left overs.

Tomorrow the kittens go back to the shelter so they can get fixed. It is going to be strange to not have those little guys running around for a few days. I am ready to foster another litter.

I have been trying to get a going away party organized for the boys, and man it has not come easy. My girlfriend Lynn and I have been told that we are wrong for doing this and that we should not ask people to pitch in. I am so sick of people that I want to scream.

Over the past few day I found out exactly how hard some of the boys are taking this war. One of them is having a hard time adjusting back to this life. I have no idea what to say to him, so I just sit and listen.

I asked Rusty if he had any advice for me and said that he did not have that problem. The problem Rusty had was not being able to shoot people that he saw as a threat.

Another marine is having a hard time accepting the fact that he lost his friend. This marine did manage to save two other people, but can't handle the fact that the could not save the third person. This marine keeps thinking that he should have trained harder, or been quicker.

I just wish I could help these guys, but instead I will just be here and cook for them.

George just told me that her unit will be deploying to Afghanistan in September or August. Not only does life go on but so does this war.

My friend Lynn came me a huge black furry purse. Not I love this purse, because I am sure that no one else has one like it. However today I had three people tell me that they thought it was one of my cats!

I am going to go try to take a bath. This time I am going to drain all the hot water! LOL


lisa41076 said...

Kelli, I took a bath earlier, it felt good, there is snow on the mountains off in the distance, hope you can get Ryan's meeting rescheduled soon, Hugs Lisa

nelishianatl said...

I watched a movie this week with Tommy Lee Jones that made me think of your guys and George too.  It was called The Valley of Elah.  If you have time try to go over to and search for it.  It will tell you why the guys and ladies too are having such a hard time watching.  I joined A SOLDIER'S ANGEL today and intend to be a real friend and a support.  

I hope you get enough hot water.  And people butt out of telling you to do before they end up in hot water. Hopefully all will go well for Ryan's meetings and people will get their you know what together on his behalf.

Nite for now,


lv2trnscrb said...

I think sitting and listening when someone is talking is the best thing you can do for them; just letting them get their feelings out I bet helps them because I bet a lot of people don't want to hear what they have to say.

I hope you can get the party together; I think it is an awesome thing to do; can't imagine why anyone would think it wouldn't be.

I hope you got a wonderful hot shower!

sorry the IEP didn't go well or at all, but glad that Ryan seems to be making good progress with his reading!


plieck30 said...

Girl if anyone needs a good hot soak its you. You are always doing something for someone or something. I'm sure those marines appreciate you just listening and cooking for them. Paula

lanurseprn said...

I can't even imaging going through the trauma of what the soldiers go through. I heard stories of my parents who were both in WWII. What a nightmare!
If they know they can come to your house and feel like it's home than that is a big thing. Keep on cooking!

nay0114 said...

Hope you finally get a hot bath. I had a new waterheater put in and 20 people could take a shower and you'll still get in and the water will burn you. My grandson loves to take a bath over here. They live in apartments and the water is always cold. Plus I have a little heater for the bathroom and I usually have it around 85 degrees in there and he can play for hours in the water.
Sorry all those guys are having such a hard time. I couldn't handle it myself. I can't even imagine the guilt they feel when their friends die. Yes, I understand what you mean when they think if they had done something different everyone would be alive, but you and I know that is not always the case. Not feeling guilty and letting go is a very hard thing to deal with. I'm glad they have you around to listen to them and food is a wonderful thing to share with them. I'm sure their parents appreciate everything you do for their children.
Take care, Chrissie

deshelestraci said...

I can't imagine the stories you hear.  What a nightmare for those men and women who are having pieces of them destroyed.  
On a lighter note, we had chili and cornbread for dinner last night too.  No leftovers here and I'm mad!  I love leftover chili.
Keep pushing for that deployment party.  They need it I'm sure!

gehi6 said...

I did get a laugh out of your new purse being taken for a cat.  Well, since you are a cat lover the one who gave it to you must have had that in mind!  Sad stories about the soldiers who cannot recover that easy from being in combat.  It must be very hard to get those intense moments off their minds.  I think you are doing as good a job as anyone I knew giving their hearts ease.  Gerry  

glensfork4 said...

I am glad all the marines have you to go too.....I can't even begin to imagine the pain and anguish some of them sad. But if you could let them know that this one women in small town america Kentucky...appreciates what they are doing for me and everyone else in this country.



hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU))))))))))))))))You are doing so much by helping thoes Marines,they have a plce to come to,you sit and listen to them talk and you cook for them.You are doing so much.

rdautumnsage said...

I've seen that look and desperation on my daughter's fiance face. Somehow I don't think he knows how to not be in this war.....

I would be pissed not to have hot water when I wanted it...sorry to hear about the incompetent idiots at Ryan's school. I don't understand why people have a problem chipping in for a goodbye party....these guys don't have a problem going off to war to fight for their freedom...(Hugs) INdigo

tsalagiman1 said...

I got a kick out of what you were hearing: chillin'! LOL!!  Glad Ryan is reading mostly on a third grade level.  I know it's hard and aggravating to have to do it, but you just keep on pushing for services for Ryan.  Do whatever it takes no matter what it is.  I've fought these battles way too many times, and you would think the so-called professionals would make it easier for parents and not harder.  I know there are some good educators out there, but they are getting few and far between it seems.  I'm glad Ryan has you to push for him.

On the going away party - what's the deal????  I don't get what's supposed to be wrong with it.  What's wrong is expecting one or two people to foot the entire bill for something like this.

The survivor's guilt that one Marine is feeling - I can't even imagine.

One last thing - you said you wish you could help those guys.  You are - you are doing so much more than you realize by being there, listening to them, cooking for them, and sharing a part of your life with them.  I know they appreciate it more than they can say and you can know.


nellieenglsh said...

Well it sounds like survivors guilt.  All you can do is be there for him, keep telling him that it's not his fault and it is ok to feel like that.  

Remeber they all will have some sort of issue to workout.  just tell them not to hide it and to talkk to someone who they feel comfortable talkin to, you don't have to say anything just listen and be there for them.

We all owe them our gratitude and should help them in their hour of need.

springangel235 said...

I know the feeling of waiting for hot many in this house, use it up by the time it is my is a sit and waiting game. Sorry nothing was working to get the IEP done, but great news on Ryan's reading level.  So nice you are helping those that need it by cooking good meals...very nice.
Hope you have a beautiful rest of the week...hugs and love,

helmswondermom said...

You do so much for the marines you've befriended just by being there, listening to them when they feel like talking, cooking for them, and just being an ordinary person doing ordinary things.  I cannot imagine the horrors they face, physically and mentally, but I know that what you do every day would have to be of comfort and help to them.