I have been wondering about something. I wonder if people read my journal for shock effect or if because it is real life?
I have written about several things in my journal that might be considered taboo subjects, and yet I got a lot of comments and e mails on them.
Do I write about stuff that goes on all over but no one talks about it? Is it a dirty little secret to have a husband that you are intimate with?
Anyway I was just wondering. I am glad to know that by me writing about these subjects I am finding more people have the same issues that I do.
I got the house cleaned up a little bit and the babies are sleeping.
I had to call Ryan's school this morning. It seems that they told Amber yesterday that she is not allowed to pick Ryan up from the after school program. What? Well, Amber is not 18. Hello she has not been 18 all year and she has picked him up. The school said that I have to pick him up or he can't come to the after school program any more. I have a call into them.
I have to call Ambers school today and call her out tomorrow. She is going to stay home and keep the kittens until George gets off work. However tomorrow is senior ditch day, so I was advised by one of Ambers teachers to call her out today.
I finally got to see Nikki play softball! She had her first home game yesterday and their team won.
Yesterday I sitting there watching Nikkis game and the wind was just whipping. I don't know how long I zoned out but for a while I was another ball field sitting on the bleachers and I was writing Rusty a letter.
I can see this so clearly. It was the last time Rusty was in Iraq and it was Nikki's season playing softball. Rusty was so sad that he was missing it. I would write Rusty letter and then when Nikki would get up to bat I would give Rusty a play by play as to what is going on.
Rusty said he really liked those letters but that they also made him sad. He was missing his daughters first season of softball.
Rusty is going to try to get some time off so that he can see Nikki play this year.
Well I should be paying our bills. I hate paying bills. I think it is a waste of money! Lol, but I still have to do it. Money is not as tight as it was a few months ago, but it is still tight.
Lyn can't pay me to help with the rescue, so I am back to thinking about getting a job. I would need something very early morning or on the night shift. By the time I pay for gas, taxes and child care for Ryan I would not be making any money. If I work nights at least Rusty will be here.
I just don't know what to do? I so want to give my children the world and provide for their every want but I just can't. I sometimes look at my children and just want to cry. I want to know why we can't afford to pay for their trip. Why do other parents not blink an eye at it? Oh well.
O.K. today we are picking up Sharon in Lititz Pa! So Sharon send the day care children home and send all your children to France to be with your ex!
Here is what I am going to do to make money! LOL For some reason this song puts the kittens to sleep.