This has been one very crazy weekend. I had my shrink on the phone all weekend. Yes everyone I have a shrink. My shrink is Dimitri and since he is our friend I don't have to pay him! LOL Free is a good price.
Issue number one. When I was going through a box I came across a small photo album. When I opened the album there were pictures of my late in laws. My heart just sank. Memorial Day is coming up. Every Memorial Day I go and put flowers and pictures on their grave. I have done for I think four years now. I do not want to do it anymore. I know that Rusty and Rusty's brother have said thank you to me for doing it, but I just don't want to do it any more. So my issue was.... does that make me a bad person for not going and leaving the grave un attended? Am I wrong to no long want to do what Rusty and his brother should be doing?
I was told no that I was not a bad person and that I have done it longer then most people would have. I was also told Rusty and Rysty's brother may never go to the grave, it all depends on them and if there was ever any closure.
I told Rusty about mine and Dimitris conversation. Rusty said I think I will go this year. I told Rusty that I would go with him and support him, but that I would not do it for him any more.
Issue number two. Nikki. Yes Betty may seem to have everything together and Nikki is very driven, however Nikki has said something more then once that scares me.
I have come to term's with Nikki wanting to join the service. I don't like it and I can't stop it. More then once I have asked Nikki why she would want to be a Chaplin assistance instead of be the chaplain or using her engineering degree.
The answer is the same. If I am the Chaplin assistance then I get to carry a gun.
At this point I walk away. I do know enough to know that I don't know enough.
I said to Dimitri " let me ask you a question as my friend and not my shrink. Do enjoy killing people?"
The was no and that there is no glory in taking another humans life.
Then I explained the whole Nikki thing to Dimitri. I was told that t.v. movies, and even the marines make war sound great, but it is not. Dimitri could not answer my question on the whole gun thing. He did say that he would sit down and talk to her and see where she is coming from.
Yesterday Rusty Nikki and I went down to the church and we met with the youth pastor and the mother from hell.... the boyfriends mom.
Now I have been supportive, for the most part I have bit my lip, and I am so done with this bitch.
We get into this room to talk about everything. O.K. I know this will be hard to believe, but I sat there and listen to this lady run my daughter down.
Nikki finally hit rock bottom. Nikki stood up and just let loose on this lady. Now in my mind I high fiving Rusty. That is my girl! I am so proud of Nikki for finally standing up for herself.
Once Nikki was done unloading on this bitch, she grabbed Rusty's hand and pulled him out of the room.
Once Nikki and Rusty left, it was my turn. I very calmly said in front of the youth pastor "I have bent over backwards for nikki and Chris. I even offered to take your son in when you kicked him out." Then I left.\
Nikki said that she is so done. I am glad! I just wish that she did not have to hit rock bottom to get done.
Well Rusty and I are running off to Vegas this weekend! Some of our friends from Il. are flying into Vegas, so we are going to drive out there and see them. Vegas is only about 4 hours from here, so that is not to bad.
O.K. so today we are going to Jacksonville Fl. I have never been there but I wish I could go visit it. To be very truthful I have never been to Fl!
So Heather and Sherry pack you bags we are coming to get you.