Monday, June 18, 2007

it is going to be a long summer

I was looking at Jessica Parkers new line of clothing when I saw this picture. I love her hair. I just wish I could see the back of her hair. I just know with my curls that this hair style would look so cute on me.

I am about to go on a rant so watch out.

Nikki is gone, Amber was out with Sam and another friend. I was stuck at home with Ryan. I told Ryan to turn the video games off and that he was not going to spend his summer playing video games and watching t.v.

I sure hope that today is not what I have to look forward to. None of the children in the neighborhood will play with Ryan. O.K. Ryan will not play with them, and I can't blame him ,since all of the children pick on him. So he sat on the floor and stared at the wall. Then he will go outside and skip the length of the yard, and then it is back to staring at the wall.

I was thinking about going to the lake, but Ryan only wants to go to the lake if someone is "entertaining" him. I just wanted to worship the sun god.

I went to talk to my neighbor who has a daughter with c.p. and I told her what was going on. She said that the t.v. and the video games are the only friends that they really have. What else can we do? We can't force the other children to be nice to him. I can't force him to go hiking, or surfing, or any of the other things that I want to go do.

So where does that leave me? Stuck at home all day? I am just thankful that summer school will be starting soon and at least he will be in class with all of his friends from this year.

I want to know where the guide book is for raising a mentally handicap  child. If they were passing them out then I missed it.

Rusty is still sick. I so wanted Rusty to come home so that I could have some adult conversation, but that will not be happening tonight.

I had no adult conversation all day and I won't have any tonight. Right now is the time when I would love to have a job. At least I would have someone to talk to.

Oh I need a girlfriend that I can go get some coffee with.

O.K. enough of the bitching. It will get me no where.

13 comments:

plieck30 said...

My deceased husband's youngest brother was mentally retarded as they called it back then. Doesn't matter what its called they are sweet kids with a huge problem. He only wanted to watch TV, drink coke and pretend to play the guitar. The smallest things made him happy like getting a haircut. I hope Ryan finds something to do that makes him happy this summer and that makes you happy too so you can get out and do something that you enjoy. Paula

louiseb411 said...

Put the kettle on and I will have a coffee with you! My brother is mentally handicapped so I know what its like.How long are you summer holidays in America ours do not start until the end of july.Hope you have a better day today  Louise xx

seraphoflove9001 said...

My younger sister is 37 and has the mind of a 13 year old. Growing up she always "clinged" to my mom. Back then, they didn't know what to "call" her. She still lives with my mom. Her hands are full still. My sister will up and leave for months at a time and no one will know where she is, then just reappear and be fine! Back then though...I was made to help babysit her so my mom could go out and have time to herself. I wish you nothing but the best of luck. ((()))
Lisa

deshelestraci said...

I was kind of wondering where your son had been since the girls are so active.  I hate that he struggles so with friendships.  I has to be so hard on you.  I hope school starts soon for him!
Traci

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU))))))))))))))))))I am sorry things arent lookg good for ryan,I hope He finds a friend to play with and I hope you find a good friend to talk to.Have a nice day.

julydarby said...

I don't know how functional Ryan is... but I assume if he can play video games, he has some measure of ability. One year with Austin we had him involved in a summer program at the school. Actually... over the course of several years thru several different scenarios we had him working with younger children... because he is on par intellectually but emotionally immature, that works well for Austin. He likes to be the "big guy" and he takes well to younger children. It might do well for Ryan if you can find a play group... reading group at the library or bookstore... vacation bible school group... contact his counselor at school about summer camps or things that might work for him. Austin actually ended up working as a helper in the autism program at the school working with the profoundly autistic kids who were younger... he "got" those kids... since he is autistic... and it made him feel special to be the older/bigger/smarter one for once. Otherwise... Austin has done well having a vegetable garden at my parents' house. He likes to tend to it. He has chores every day and as long as he has a set schedule he does ok... but... he's very tunnel-visioned... it's hard to re-direct him once he gets started doing something - like a video game. OH... and he likes to cook. Does Ryan have the capacity to learn to do simple baking like muffins and stuff? Or... well, you're vegan so I guess you don't do muffins... but you get the idea. Get creative, lady! Get thee to the library! Get thee to all the free stuff in your area! Explore your world and take your kid with you! How much would I LOVE to be able to wander with Austin this summer!
*hugs*
heather

michelleartworx said...

Hi, just read your blog and think you are on little downer, good hairstyle and pamper in desparate need for confidence and 'take on the world' booster needed immiediately! Pity us ladies cant go to the doctor and get new hairdos on prescription! That would solve some of the giving out antidepressant problems!

You love your son, and he loves you, you do your best and so does he...Fuck anything else, life is hard and short.
besides, Im still majorly jello of your sex life,so you have a littlemore love in that house than I have in mine.
Im waiting for pill,and man hasnt had snip...he's nervous....

cgtperkins said...

Hmmm....there has to be something out there that Ryan would enjoy doing. Maybe the summer school or some other summer program would be good. I like the hair style too.....I just love her, she is so cute. I bet that style would be cute on you. Have a great week.
Hugs
Carrie

helmswondermom said...

I can't imagine how hard it must be to have a handicapped child.  You are so good at getting things done, too, and you are such a busy, occupied person, that it has to be frustrating to be banging you head against the wall with this situation.  Are there any groups in your area that might have some idea?  Hope things smooth out when summer school starts and you can get out and do your own thing when you need to.
Lori

lisa41076 said...

Kelli, sending Hugs your way , Hugs Lisa

nay0114 said...

Hang in there things will work out. That hair style is cute.
Take care, Chrissie

lurkynat said...

hugs Kelli! uh..is the lake too hot/
funny entry!
nat

gehi6 said...

Goodness sakes, where do you get these spooky graphics.  I am sorry you feel like THIS.  Yes, I think you would look good with a Jessica Parker hairdo.  Your story about Ryan reminded me of days when Dante came to torture Grandma, about once a week.  I don't know if he was mentally handicapped or not.  Maybe all kids are in the summer and complain there is nothing they really want to do.  
                                         Gerry