I am not sure if I am suppose to be mad or sad or both. Right now I am feeling sad.
Some of you have been reading my journal for a while and you know that my mother and I have long standing issues. In the past I have tried to let them go, but not any more.
Tonight I called her to ask when she had gotten tickets to go see this play that she wants to take the children to. * my mom lives in Chicago and the children will be going out there for a visit this summer*
Then she asked me how my back was. I told her that I ended up in the ER. Then she just let loose on me. saying things like " I told you to go get an mri done, I told you that you would be in a lot of pain".
I just ended the conversation right there. I told her that I would e mail all the info on the children's flight.
What the heck? We do not have medical insurance on me. I cannot just go and get all of these test done!
I am sick of being the child that she had to make my dad happy. If this had happened to my sister she would have flown half way around the world for her. I get NOTHING! Not even so much as " are you feeling better?"
I told Rusty about this and he said "Well baby I love you and I will fly around the world for you" I so love that man.
The time has come for me to cut my mom off. I once cut her off for almost 5 years. I would allow her to talk to the children but I would have nothing to do with her. I think that time has come again. I am a person that deserves to be loved and not put down. My own mother causes me to much stress so it is time to let her go