Thursday, February 22, 2007

so sorry

     I feel just like this cat. I think I could sleep forever right now!

I am sorry for not commenting, but I have not had time to do much of anything! I was up at 6, gone by 7 and came home at 9.

I did get to spend a little bit of time with Rusty tonight. Ray took us out to dinner and then he kept the truck I was driving. So I got to ride home with Rusty. It was nice to just sit next to him.

I have so missed Rusty this week. i know that sounds strange, but we really have not had anytime to just talk, so tonight was great.

Tonight we talked about death. I know not a topic most people would pick. For what ever reason we were not talking, and I told Rusty that I really miss my dad and that not a day goes by that I do not think of him. I asked Rusty if it will get easier, and he assured me that it does get easier. I don't know, there are days that I just want to cry, but I just keep moving on.

Rusty told me that he still has days that he often things of his parents. He said that there are times that he wishes he could talk to his dad. I so know what he means. What do you do when your parents die? Rusty's parents were not old and neither was my dad. Both of us lost our parents when we still needed them.

On to another subject. I got the medical bill from the hospital today. It was around $880! I about fell over. I told rusty that I think I am going to just start ordering drugs from Mexico and just keeping them on hand! it would be so much cheaper that way.

We are not going to have Ambers yard sale tomorrow since we are expecting rain all weekend. So we will try it next weekend. Amber thought that was cool, and said that we might even get some more donation between now and then. That is my girl! I am glad that she put a positive spin on it.

I just found out that one of our friends got orders and will be leaving in two weeks. I am sad to see her go, but this a great move for her career. Our friend Wendy will be the command master chief of Navel Hospital Bethesda. this is a big step in her career, and for that reason I am very proud of her.

My goal for tomorrow is to try to catch up on my journals. I am going to cook dinner in the morning, and then at some point tomorrow Ray will be bringing the truck back, and I will have to follow him back to the place that is doing his brakes. So the morning is mine, and I choose to spend the time doing things for my family.

Well I need to take a shower, and then I am going to bed. I do hope that everyone has a great Friday.

10 comments:

lisa41076 said...

Kelli, Awwwwww I'm sorry you miss your dad, I ca'nt imagine what my life would be like without my mom, we are so close and my dad and I do'nt speak, long story, do'nt worry about not commenting, whenever you can, hope Amber can have the yard sale soon, it's raining here too, Hugs Lisa

zoepaul6968 said...

I feel like that cat too,lol,but i percieve it as just flopping over and giving up just for five minutes,life never stops for a second for you to catch up does it? I wish it would,all the best zoe xx
http://journals.aol.co.uk/zoepaul6968/DomesticAbuse/

springangel235 said...

I am like you, I miss my Dad too...not a day goes by that I don't.  Loved the kitty photos...so cute.  Hope you have a great weekend...hugs and love,
Joyce

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU)))))))))))))))))))))))You will always miss your Dad,that will never go away,but,it does get easy.Just think of all the good times you had with Him.That was good of your daughter to think on a postive thought about doing the yard sail next weekend.I hope you have a nice weekend.

helmswondermom said...

Glad you had some private time with hubby to talk.  I still think of my dad quite often and miss him greatly, but it does get easier.
Lori
http://journals.aol.com/helmswondermom/DustyPages

magran42 said...

You're burning the candle at both ends...better watch out!  The subject doesn't really matter as long as you are connecting.  We talk about the most insignificant things but we connect on a heart to heart level.

louiseb411 said...

Hi   I miss my Dad too, glad you can talk about it. Have a nice weekend  Louise

lurkynat said...

Hugs Kelli! Don't worrya bout commenting..I know what you mean...
I am so sorry that you both miss your dad... sigh...
It is ahrd to say much except that you can get other people to "stnad in" for him , people whom you both admire and trust can advise you and visit with you at least...So sorry that the hospital costs so much for drugs!let me know if your friend who si in the Navy or other people want snail mail!
hugs,nat

lurkynat said...

dear Kelli, so sorry for my typo!"Stand in"
love,nat

mrsm711 said...

Talking about the loss of your loved ones is good.  Memories are good.  
The graphics are way too cute.  :)
http://journals.aol.com/mrsm711/LatteDah/      Tracy