Monday, October 24, 2005

pissed off

So I go into work last night and I was beat, but hey that is life. Around 9 p.m. another worker offers to go get us some coffee. I was cool, it is a little chilly here so I could use a warm up.

Then I started feeling funny and I thought nothing of it. I came home, wrote some in my journal and tried to get some sleep.

I went to bed and I thought that my heart was going to jump out of my chest and at the same time it felt like a very heavy weight on my chest. I could not turn my mind off and then before I knew it the alarm clock was going off. So I got up with the children.

Tony and Rusty come outside and asked me if I got any sleep and I told them no. I told them how I felt durning the night and by that time I had the shakes and I felt so funny.

Rusty and Tony look at each other and they asked me what I took. I was like are you talking about? They told me that it sounded like I was on speed. Well... as it turns out the gal that went to get the coffee is a speeder. ( which I did not know!) So she either slipt it in my coffee or put it in her coffee and gave me the wrong cup. Either way I am pissed. I got up at 6 a.m. on Sunday and it is now 11 p.m. on Monday and I still have not slept.

I am wondering what is going to happen when I come down? Am I going to crash and burn? Rusty is pissed off too because I am now so scared to drive because what if I crash while I am driving. I have never done speed before so this is all new to me.

I can say one thing for sure. I will never accept anything from another office worker again. I can't do that to myself or to my family.

So here i sit wondering if I am ever going to get some sleep.

Well I guess I will go do something...... after all I am wide awake.


tillysweetchops said...

OMG what a thing to happen. Thank goodness you're okay. Some people are really sensitive to these types of drugs, she could have done you some serious damage. Hope you manage to get some sleep and don't strangle your co-worker too hard when you next see her!

Tilly x

rtgilmore34 said...

OMG Kelli!  That bitch knows what she did, because she wanted a fix and didn't get one.  There's nothing you can do but ride it out.  I've been there before as a former tweeker.  I have been clean since 1993.  Scout's honor.  But, because you are so thin, it will take longer to get out of your system.  You'll be fine, I promise.  Coming down is hard.  You will probably sleep 12 hours or more.